This one is also named after a song ... an old fave by Alanis ... it just seemed timely
Hand in my Pocket
I'm broke but I'm happy I'm poor but I'm kind I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby
What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a high five
I feel drunk but I'm sober I'm young and I'm underpaid I'm tired but I'm working, yeah
I care but I'm restless I'm here but I'm really gone I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby
What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be quite alright 'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is flicking a cigarette
What it all comes down to Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet 'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a peace sign
I'm free but I'm focused I'm green but I'm wise I'm hard but I'm friendly, baby
I'm sad but I'm laughing I'm brave but I'm chicken [censored] I'm sick but I'm pretty, baby
And what it all boils down to Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet But I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is playing the piano
What it all comes down to my friends, yeah Is that everything's just fine fine fine 'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is hailing a taxi cab
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
Oh, you mean the one where she sings "and when I scratch my nails down someone else's back, I hope you feel it" ... Nah. I don't think/feel like that ... anymore.
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
LOL ... ok for those of you worried about regression and my mental stability ... here's the background ...
I am a huge Alanis fan. Been to see her 3 times, which is actually quite a feat for someone who lives in my part of the world! Last summer "Oughta Know" came on the radio while I was driving back from a weekend away. I was belting it out, feeling pretty good about my mental state when I got to the above mentioned line ^^^ and stopped. It got under my skin. I knew it shouldn't. I was "healthy" and "detached" and all those things I was spouting off about. So what did I do? I changed stations. And I didn't look back. I didn't dig at all, because I didn't like what I knew I would find.
Fast forward to the present ... happened to hear "Hand in my Pocket" just the other day on the radio and it rang true. So true. Smiled all the way through it. Then, just a little while later I heard "Oughta Know" ... and I waited for it ... and it didn't come. I didn't have that feeling ... it was just a song. No stirrings ... no uneasy buried crap.
So yeah, I was trying to be funny ... but I also meant it ... I don't feel like that anymore. Thank God!
Oh ... and a side note ... just realized yesterday that my bomb-iversary came and went and I didn't notice ... LOL ... January 21st ... just another day
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
So I call stbxH regarding some tax information ... turns out that I’m going to get to claim more of the daycare receipts than I first knew and had to let him know that I was asking the daycare to rewrite the receipts. Had a quick chat about the kids weekend and then tell him I’m going to let him go so I can email the accountant. “Oh,” he says “no problem, talk to you later. And Happy Valentines Day PEI.”
ME: “Really? I’m not sure what the standard response is in this situation ...”
StbxH: “Well, just sayin’.”
ME: laughing (‘cause what else can you do at times like this) “Back at cha.”
Welcome to the twilight zone. LMAO
Peace PEI
Holding onto anger to punish someone else, is like lighting yourself on fire to get smoke in their eyes ~ 25yearsmlc
