Kelly Jo The Wifey new thread.

[The Wifey]

Thanks for telling me I'm doing well. Its hard to tell when you feel so bad a lot of the time.

You are going to have to work a whole lot harder than what you wrote to come across as mean. I can take it. And, I need to right now so I can shape up!

[The Wifey]

I so wanted to email him and ask him to meet me for dinner before I go tonight, but I haven't. I am snapping the rubber band on my wrist so much my wrist is bright pink!

[ndsmhelp]

Kelly Jo
The more I see your posts, the more I see that in some ways we are very similar.

I really am getting better this week at giving her some much needed space, but even when I do, she is still constantly on my mind.

Take a step with me tonight after work. My wife is going over to a friends house(the bad influence, arghh!!)for a slumber party with friends daughters.

I may see her at home before she leaves, I may not. When I get home I am going to go out and mow the grass and do some yard work...try to really work up a sweat.

Then I am going to take the dog for a walk.

Then iron my clothes for work tomorrow.

Next comes the treadmill, and the bowflex(if I make it these will be firsts).

Tell me what you are going to do.

Then check back in here tonight and we can see how each one of us did.

I should be back on about 10:30 or 11, how about you.

Hang in there kiddo.

[One Day]

I so wanted to email him and ask him to meet me for dinner before I go tonight, but I haven't. I am snapping the rubber band on my wrist so much my wrist is bright pink!

Well done Kelly Jo- keep it up (but don't injure yourself!)

[Neilh23]

Kjo....

i hope you are having an enjoyable friday evening...the weather over this way was beautiful today...i'm waiting to go to the movies..

make sure you enjoy yourself tonite...

[poet]

Hey there Kjo,

Just stopping in to say hi. I think you did great today with LostP, by the way. I think he is just really, really hurting and has no clue how to deal with his pain, so he's lashing out on everyone. Don't worry. He'll come around. You, on the other hand must keep that rubber band in check, OK?

I'll see you on the boards, soon.

hugs,
s

[The Wifey]

Guys I need to vent. My husband was at home when I got there to check on the dog. He was obviously hurrying to try and get out of there with the motorcycle before I got there. I was able to give him a kiss and tell him I loved him before he left.

I don't care if that is DB right now. Swing your 2x4's if you want.

I went on to tell him to have a good ride and asked him to call when he gets home just so I will know he is safe. HE said I love you back to me, but was standing a bit back from me.

I'm at my mom's and I am inches from tears, yet managing to hold them back. I am here to give him space. God, I want him so bad.

I spoke to a friend that is on vacation in California a bit tonight. I told her how I was feeling and she gave me the whole take care of yourself thing. I felt a little blindsided. I have to be very selective who I talk to - only you guys understand about wanting to save my marriage.

I also emailed him to let him know that Randy Pausch passed away. He was very moved by his last lecture video and his book. So moved that a part of me thinks it was part of what brought him to the bomb.

Nothing mushy in the email. I just let him know about Randy and that I'd said a prayer for his family and felt sad about it.

Suzanne, Lost P needs all of us more than anyone can imagine. I see his pain. I feel his pain. Where other get angry and take offense to what he says, I can see that it is a big bluster to try and hide the pain.

And I can understand it because I am in so much pain right at this moment. I want my husband. Need to be good, though. Only DB will work.

Now please understand, everyone, that my DB may be a little different from yours. Let me know if I cross any of those invisible lines. But, my DB is personal to me.

My friend tried to tell me not to attend the grad party tomorrow with my h and in-laws. I'm going. I will act as if while I'm there, but I am NOT passing up the opportunity to be with him. There is nothing that could keep me from using a perfectly normal thing to be with him. We were invited and already responded.

It hurts so bad tonight. I want to cry a gallon of tears. The night is young, I just may.

[Neilh23]

Kjo...

feel the pain. experience it. and take strength from it.

that'st he best i can tell for you....really...

trust me, do someting nice for yourself...right now.

[The Wifey]

About the nicest thing I'm doing right now is posting to the BB and drinking blackberry merlot. I have a little buz working and it feels like it is taking the edge off a little.