I am still here. It's a marathon, not sprint, and I'm still in it. Back in February when bomb #2 dropped, I would have never thought I'd still be here for my anniversary. I seriously didn't think I would've had that much time to DB. This has really turned out to be a series of opportunities. Through GAL'ing, I have gotten to do a lot of new things. I have grown as a person. I've made new friends. I feel like I'm finding myself. This is the lemonade I've been able to make out of the lemons I've been served.
Today was my wedding anniversary. I've updated my signature. That's about the biggest thing I did for my anniversary.
I must have been exhausted from the previous week. Not that I went to bed all that early (it was around 2am), I slept until about 12:10pm. For all you reading that aren't getting any sleep, that'll tell you eventually you will have that occasional night where you will sleep.
I did have some limited contact with my W today. She is supposed to take my S to a picnic tomorrow afternoon. She asked if I was going to be back home by 6pm tomorrow. I haven't told her what I was doing (I'm planning on golfing), but I told her I really didn't know. She turned around and told me she was going to the fireworks downtown tomorrow. I have to admit I wondered with who, although I'm not trying to think about it. I told her I'd just have to let her know later.
My S and I just kind of hung out earlier today. I had to run out, and exchange some legs for a dining room chair - my S came with me.
To GAL this evening, I took my S on a 1.5 hr. drive one way just to get pizza. We went to this restaurant in south central Ohio where we stopped on our way during our vacation this summer. I really enjoy road trips and he was pretty content with his DS in the back seat. It's a pretty drive, and the traffic always light in that direction. That was the kind of thing my W and I used to do before we had our S. So if my W's not around, my S can participate in this fun with me instead.
jb- one of the things I like most about you is your ability to put a positive spin on everything.
Like you, I never thought I'd still be apart from my H this long. However, had we not I never would have found this site and met so many awesome people such as yourself.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤
Morning, brother jb. It is hard to believe we've been fighting in the trenches this long, isn't it? But we're still here. And like DG said, look at all of the good friends we've made through this board. I believe anyone here would would give the shirt off of their backs if we needed it.
Stay strong.
H 56 W 48 D27,S21 SS25 SS22 Severely autistic M(#2 for both) 9 1/2 yrs. "I've never loved you" 3/7/2011 Separated 8/7/2011 BITS
Thanks for the encouragement and good words, E, DG, and Telemark! The support I get here is truly amazing!
Started my day today with a 8.6 mi. bike ride before church. Again, as has been the case, I talking to all sorts of new friends at church. I am blessed to be in such a good church through all this junk I'm going through right now. I'll have to admit I woke up kind of anxious today, but I felt a lot better after church. This might sound kind of strange, but sometimes I feel like what my W is pursuing seems so petty, it just seems like she's grasping at smoke in the scheme of things.
They showed the trailer for the movie, "Courageous" at church today. They are renting a movie theater for a group of us to go to in October. I came home and watched the song by Casting Crowns on YouTube and cranked it up. It got me pumped up.
I wrote a check today for a deposit to go on a mission trip to Belize in Feburary, too.
My GAL'ing plans for this afternoon were busted. My golfing buddy wasn't feeling too well the weather is off and on raining. So it looks like I will be home around 6 when she brings my S back home. She's going to the fireworks downtown. I don't know who with, I'm not going to ask, and I'm trying not to think about it. I think I have to let her drive down her own road of destruction. I'll probably do some work around the house, like cut the grass and go to the grocery. Woohoo! I may try to run 2 miles after cutting the grass.
Pleasant enough exchange with my W today when she came and got my S. It was about a 5 minute stop. I went ahead and rubbed in a bit that my S and I went to get pizza last night 1.5 hrs. away. She knows the place. She's been there. I also told her I was going to Belize.
I think I may just stay home with my S tonight. We've been out and about the last couple of nights and we're going up to my Mom's tomorrow.
Man, that was a long post. Guess I had a lot on my mind.
You are one of my inspirations. i read through your whole sitch and i can only hope to be the person you have been through all of this. I know you have inspired many of us out here in this particular hell.
((((((jbnati))))))) internalize that huge hug
Me (f): 45 W(f) 35 T: 13 y C: S4 adopted at birth 6-18-11 bomb: I want to break up 8-28-11 OW confirmed
I'm glad to know you made it through your anniversary okay. That was a toughie for me too. It's amazing how positive things and people in our lives (at the top of the list, your son) can help carry us through the tough times without even knowing it. You truly are the #1 GAL'er of all time! Tonight's plans of just taking it easy with your son sound like great ones to me; I just wonder if you are able to sit still that long! You are the busiest person I know!
You truly inspire a lot of people on these boards. I hope your wife wakes up and realizes what she's giving up before it's too late.
Through GAL'ing, I have gotten to do a lot of new things. I have grown as a person. I've made new friends. I feel like I'm finding myself. This is the lemonade I've been able to make out of the lemons I've been served.
^^^ Great look on things. Glad your anniversary was bearable!
M(f): 40 D'ed: 8/12
Show empathy when there's pain. Show grace when warranted. Kindness in the midst of anger. Faith in the face of fear.
That's about the biggest thing I did for my anniversary.
For all you reading that aren't getting any sleep, that'll tell you eventually you will have that occasional night where you will sleep.
We went to this restaurant in south central Ohio where we stopped on our way during our vacation this summer. I really enjoy road trips and he was pretty content with his DS in the back seat. It's a pretty drive, and the traffic always light in that direction. That was the kind of thing my W and I used to do before we had our S. So if my W's not around, my S can participate in this fun with me instead. 
You are the busiest person I know!