It's only fear that makes you run

[Whiterose]

"I'm The Only One"

Please baby can't you see
My mind's a burnin' hell
I got razors a rippin' and tearin' and strippin'
My heart apart as well
Tonight you told me
That you ache for something new
And some other woman is lookin' like something
That might be good for you

Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone
Go on believe her when she tells you
nothing's wrong
But I'm the only one
Who'll walk across the fire for you
I'm the only one
Who'll drown in my desire for you
It's only fear that makes you run
The demons that you're hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I'm the only one

Please baby can't you see
I'm trying to explain
I've been here before and I'm locking the door
And I'm not going back again
Her eyes and arms and skin won't make
it go away
You'll wake up tomorrow and wrestle the sorrow
That holds you down today

Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone
Go on believe her when she tells you
nothing's wrong
But I'm the only one
Who'll walk across the fire for you
I'm the only one
Who'll drown in my desire for you
It's only fear that makes you run
The demons that you're hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I'm the only one
Melissa Etheridge


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Respond back to him later in the day about his winter coat.

You doing well. Hang in there!

Thank you Job! I responded with a "sure" last night about 5:30 at night. No response, but I didn't really think he would. Nothing for about a month from him and since we saw each other last week close to 10 messages.....I think I touched a nerve?

Found out why he blocked, on FB, everyone associated with me (except my BIL...my sister's H)
He sent a text to two friends. Well, one is my sister's best friend (we know her and everything but it's not like we talk on the phone or anything) and then another friend (again my sister's best friend but I am closer to this one and have more interactions with her-call her S). Both ladies got a "How's it going text?" S said to me, when I saw her last night, she had to look at the number and call my sister to ask is this H? She just put her phone away....they both did....without answer. H then messaged my BIL Why aren't they responding? What have you guys said to them? BIL asked him "did you text them before you left W?" "No" "Well, then, why would they answer you now?" He then proceeded to block everyone on FB.

Anyway, got two full days of work with the event company and she asked me to come in Monday so I think I have more work for the next couple of weeks. YAY Went to a theme party last night, hosted by my priest, I was Posh (S) was Scary and S's sister was sporty....my sister came later and was Ginger. It was good. A few people asked where H was and I had to tell them and they were genuinely shocked. Lots of food, alcohol, music, and it was good. Home by 11:30 and going to do a crap load of laundry and since it's not raining today (flooding in the streets here yesterday which translates to a TON of rain as Vancouver has a fantastic water works system and I still wore my 6" open toed heels....you know you're a Vancouverite when! hahaha) going to try and get into the garden and do some clean up. S14 is sleeping over at my parent's and S19 works until 8 so I'll see what I'm up to after that

[job]

I am glad you had fun last evening. You needed a change of pace. More work for a few more weeks and that's good news too.

As for your h, I can only shake my head...the poor fool. He's just plain clueless.

Enjoy the rest of the weekend. Monday will be here before you know it.

[Whiterose]

Buttercup needs a clue.....someone pass the man a dose of reality PLEASE!!

Got into the garden and filled the greens bin (we have garbage and green pick up by the city) so I can't do anything more until next garbage day. Starting to get chilly out but it was nice to be out there. Exposed a ton of uneaten grapes when I cleaned up my vine so had about 30 birds come to visit to munch on them....that was fun to watch.

I'm really tired actually. debating between having my afternoon "coffee break" or a nap......decisions decisions:)

[Whiterose]

The boys and I were driving home fir my parent's house and were laughing and singing about Christmas. S14 comments how he's setting his alarm for 3am Christmas Eve. S19 comments about after the sil's house, where we normally go Christmas Eve, and S14 says he's coming.

I immediately shut down. Now, I'm really upset and crying. How do I get through this? Any suggestions? I feel like I can't breath when they talk about going there. Where I'm hated and vilified. I don't know how to do this

[Pudmuddle]

Ugh, I'm sorry Rose. I know it's extremely difficult, but your S's sound excited about this, be strong for them and their happiness. Please don't think that you are hated and villified. Often people just don't know how to act during times of extreme stress to others. HUGS to you.

I still haven't heard squat from SIL or MIL on Tgiving here. And they are two of the most planning type of people. Usually have the food list all worked out 2 months in advance. I have heard nothing and it's 2 weeks away.

HUGS girlfriend.

[Whiterose]

This is, honestly no word of a lie, the happiest time in my MIL's life......she has her boy back. They don't say anything about me to the boys, I don't exist actually, but I've seen what they did after the oldest D her H and the 3rd D left her SO after 10 years together. I was there for all of it.

I know I need to accept they need to do this I'm just having a hard time with it. H family is NO WHERE and they get to see the boys because they share common DNA? I just want to scream YOURE NOT THEIR FAMILY! family would never abandon my boys. 2 aunts haven't even talked to them since h left SEVEN MONTHS AGO!!! My mil has 2 scheduled visits and ran into S19 at the dr's office and bottle depot. That's it.

I'm sorry about your thanksgiving. Can we assume they're not coming now?

[Pudmuddle]

Ick sorry about that MIL, she sounds nuts. Their relationship sounds kind of creepy actually, lol. People get even stranger around the holidays.

Well they were the planners so it would be us going to their house(s). They also wrote off the other son's divorced wife, but she was a severe alcoholic and also went down the crazy path when they divorced, so it was not pretty. My SIL and MIL know I am not the crazy type. MIL even told me she will still love me no matter what, but I haven't heard a word from her since she said that...

It's tough to lose friends and family this way. Write it off I guess, to her making an attempt to include your boys in the holiday. Sorry Rose, that's really rough on you.

[Whiterose]

She's all about her boy. I was always in the way. The one that took him from her.

They always side with blood. It's just the way it is.......can you make your own small turkey dinner??

It's really rough on us all.

[Pudmuddle]

Well it still sounds creepy.

I have a friend who said I (and S) are always welcome at her house, even at the last minute, if I need it.

What about you?

[Whiterose]

Yeah, she's an odd duck. Thinks she's son awesome mom but is never actually been a mom

Great! You should go there. Turkey, pumpkin pie and friends. Yahoo

I'm in canada so our thanksgiving is second week of October.