I went to visit my parents in November and due to family stuff ended up staying longer than I expected. Since then, I've experienced a whirlwind few weeks busy with work and sickness and just life, I guess.
And I thought I was doing okay. I did send my ex an email and I tested the waters by saying "I miss you." Received a pleasant email back, but he did not refer to that statement. I figured as much, and that's okay. I had no expectation that he would mention it, so my expectations weren't dashed. Fine.
But today, I feel absolutely awful. Yesterday's siege/hostage crisis in the city I live in was troubling for me, due to a past event in my life that I won't get into. But my ex would know exactly how I was feeling yesterday, probably better than anyone. And I haven't heard a peep from him.
I know he would have ways of knowing I was physically safe, although I don't know if he bothered to find out. But if he wanted to, he easily could. What bothers me is that he doesn't care enough to reach out to find out if emotionally I am okay. He would know exactly what yesterday's events would do to me, and there's not a word from him. So, I guess it has really hit home how little he wants me in his life, how we've reached a stage where we don't even check in on each other to see if we're okay.
I'm struggling with this all over again. Not wanting to be with me right now is one thing, but not even caring about me. That's a whole new ball game.
Vossy, sorry to hear that you had a rough few days. Even without the past life events, I feel similarly about many of the things you say. H didn't ask if I was ok. He didn't send anything to say he was ok. Even my sisters were asking me about him, and one of them lives in the UK. It's like there is no "care factor" which hurts a lot. I can't imagine ever finding myself in a place where I don't care about someone who shaped my life so much.
But that says a whole lot more about out H/BF than it does us. Maybe it's the fog or maybe it's a serious personality flaw. Either way it ain't good and it bites to be on this side of it.
H 37 Me 36 Together 15 years Married 5 years No kids BD Apr 2014 H moved out 2 Jun 2014
Oh gosh, ganb8te.. I literally JUST saw this! I don't really visit my own thread anymore.. how embarrassing. Um, I'm super busy over the next few weeks as my sister is coming to visit from overseas.. but I'm available around Valentine's Day and beyond!
Ha ha. No problem! But I do think we should do this. It was nice seeing all the vets talk about people they've met up with on Raliced's lovely thread. Maybe get in touch on my thread closer to the time?
H 37 Me 36 Together 15 years Married 5 years No kids BD Apr 2014 H moved out 2 Jun 2014
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