I'm ok - I keep you all in my prayers

[JeffSTL]

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Checking in to let you know not to worry about me. I haven't posted in quite sometime but you are all still in my thoughts. I keep you all in my prayers. Karen, Kat, Cat, Puppy, H4H, WDID, Sara, lwb, MC and everyone else on this site

I'm so busy with work and the kids, anyone who has kids will know how much work kids are and with 4 I have my hands full it does make me so happy to see them playing having fun, just being with them I am very lucky.

December Dream

written by John Braheny

I can see her slowly walking
Through the empty streets of morning
Who she's with I cannot tell
His face fades with the others
In the endless spell of dreams I know so well

Though she walks with him no more with me
And I know she's where she wants to be
Her happiness is there for all to see
But I find that I still wish it was for me

I can hear her voice still ringing
Through the empty songs I sing
And it seems that all the words I find
To say the things that crowd my mind
Only bring me closer
To the things I'd rather leave behind

Though I know the game's been played
And I know the mistakes I've made
I know I shouldn't be afraid
To love, for love for any time at all
Is worth the price you pay to fall

Just came across this song, I'm constantly listening to music one of my passions its performed by The Stone Poneys a group featuring a young Linda Ronstadt from the late 60's

I like the last verse I know I shouldn't be afraid To love, for love for any time at all Is worth the price you pay to fall God has blessed me so much, family, beautiful well adjusted children, good friends, I still have a job, I have a roof over my head, food in the refrigerator, and I still pray that God will let me find love again someday

W has the kids this weekend

I'm divorced, it happened 02/10/09 I guess, thats the day the family court judge signed the parenting agreement.

Thanks you all for everything you all have done for me, I would have been a basket case if not for all of you

M45
W41
M10.75 years
D9, D7, D7, S6
OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me
New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08
W files for D 07/18/08
D final 02/10/09


What's that part in the movie Parenthood, where the grandma says I like the rollercoaster, the thrills the ups and downs, some people like the merry-go-round but that just goes round and round.

What a rollercoaster ride life has taken me on so far

[kat727]

I know everyone sometimes needs a break from here. Sometimes it is so hard to see the new people and wonder why there are so many selfish people out there. I am glad you are keeping busy.

I wish I were better at it. Just so many other things going on that I feel guilty doing stuff that is fun. Post when you are ready again. I love hearing from you.

kat

[karen43]

You're in my prayers too of course!!! I'm so glad you posted. Your D happened so fast--mine still is dragging on. How are you dealing with that? (((((Jeff))))))

[LL44]

You sound great, grounded, and focused. As always, the kids need you more than ever. What a wonderful role model you are providing to your sons and daughters. Keep it up. Sorry about the fast D, they move 'em right through in StL, don't they?

Love that movie... Parenthood!!!

[JeffSTL]

Thanks for checking in on me, karen, kat, lwb, I don't post alot but I keep an eye on what is going on with you ladies. Yes lwb, they really move quickly on D's in St Louis. I guess it helped that W didn't want anything other than $ out of my 401K so it was a fast track D for me.

I haven't posted but I have been reading your post ladies. Karen sorry your D is dragging on, I know your want to get it over and move on, kat sorry about Kansas I had them advancing in my basketball pool, at least Missouri is still in the dance I know your in limbo with regards to the B, I don't know how all that works, I wish you well. lwb, you sound good, glad you had fun in florida.

Update on me

1. Working around the house, drywalling front room and dinning room, last 2 rooms of my house I have been remodeling for the last 10 years. Busy cleaning, laundry, alway laundry to do.

2. W in Florida this week, another vacation for her and OM.

3. Kids and I were talking this morning and kids told me mom promised to bring them all presents back from Florida, what a mom.

4. D7 asked me if I knew mom's friend Dave (that's OM) they told me Dave was at mom's apartment last weekend when they were there. So its been confirmed that my kids have now been around OM Nothing I can really do about it, I have always wonder what Dave knows about our situation, if he knows what part he played in breaking up our M ????

5. I still have anger issues but everyday its less and less and every day I feel better and better about my situation and my future. (lwb I think you posted something similar)

You are all still in my thoughts. I keep you all in my prayers. Karen, Kat, Cat, Puppy, H4H, WDID, Sara, lwb, MC and everyone else on this site.

I know I shouldn't be afraid To love, for love for any time at all Is worth the price you pay to fall December Dream written by John Braheny

M45
W41
M10.75 years
D9, D7, D7, S6
OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me
New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08
W files for D 07/18/08
D final 02/10/09

[marriedCrazy]

Good to hear frm you Jeff. Glad you doing well and dealing with the kids meeting the OM. it sucks though, I know.

I've had an interesting turn in my sitch; I'll just have to see how it pans out.

Thanks for the prayers and I'll keep you in mine!

Tom

[karen43]

3. Kids and I were talking this morning and kids told me mom promised to bring them all presents back from Florida, what a mom.

So its been confirmed that my kids have now been around OM Nothing I can really do about it, I have always wonder what Dave knows about our situation, if he knows what part he played in breaking up our M ????

I'm sorry about that. It's horrible. I have to think at some point they'll realize what a huge mistake that is. Kids should come first, and they're not doing that. I do think he has to realize his part in this. They do a good part in breaking up families. My C was saying today that H and OW will always know that they broke apart 2 families with their A, so that doesn't sound like a very good start to an R.

5. I still have anger issues but everyday its less and less and every day I feel better and better about my situation and my future.

I do feel the anger sometimes, but I also feel like many of our WAS, like def. yours, are messed up and messing up their own lives more than anything.

Thanks for taking a break from the laundry & posting and letting us know you're doing well. Karen

[whatdidido]

Jeff, you can hold your head high with the way you keep your kids a priority, and your unselfishness as a father.

I also keep you in my prayers and I'm so glad you have let us know how you have been. You never forget to mention me, and you have no idea what that means to me.

I've told you this before, I just don't understand the mothers that don't have the natural "mothering instinct". It just tells me that they are in need of a lot of counseling/psychiatrict help to repair what's missing in them. You were always prepared to help her get some help, and she never would. You can help show her the way, and you can hold her hand while she goes that way, but when she would never choose that way you are left holding a treasure box that she never opens. It is so sad.

Thanks again for keeping me in your prayers, and I continue to keep you in mine as well.

((((JEFF)))))

[kat727]

Yes, the game kept playing over in my head last night as I tried to sleep. We had it for crying out loud! They were even talking about how Suton should have had his 4th foul! So crazy that we didn't push that to our advantage. Still love them though. they did so much this year. Couldn't afford to go to an actual game this year, hopefully next year. Hopefully they will all be back as they have some more growing to do.

I am officially a basketball freak!

I am glad that you are doing better. I remember how hard it was a year ago, it was all I thought about. Now things are getting back to being somewhat normal. Next step is Happy!!

I have the same problem with ex and skank, he is trying to force them into a nice little family package. My kids are none to happy with that. Just about breaks my heart with how thoughtless he is concerning our kids.

It is all going to get better and love will find us all when we are ready and are open to it.

Hugs, kat

[cat03]

hey there))))))))) so nice to hear from you! glad the D didnt' get ugly (ok, any D is ugly, but you kwim)
I'm glad you sound alive and in good spirits, working on the house does take one's mind off things, and it's productive
I've turned into a lurker, it does help to take a break. You are in my my constant prayers too J, God bless.