I know, that's the way they do it to survive the guilt, it still is very hard to accept he was just another weak man looking for a way out, with absolutely no consideration of my feelings...
You are exactly right about this. My W used to make ME feel guilty for being jealous of her "friendship" with one of her male friends. He would constantly call the house, especially when he had been drinking. She would end up talking to him like she was this school girl with a crush. I'd try to make the case that it didn't seem appropriate and she would lay into me. I would end up apologizing to her for doubting her...all the time they were actually sleeping together. Pathetic to say the least.
S4H, when I suspected something was going on with the specific woman, I found a picture of her on the internet. She is blond, long hair, big fat lips and looks nothing like me. (H always said he loved short dark hair in women) So, when I commenetd to him about her he said "you know she is not even my type, I would never fall for someone with her looks!!!". At that point they had been together for 8 months...
I am still cycling too. Although lately I don't stay on any particular one for very long....don't know if that is better or not but I don't stay mad or sad as long as I used to.
It's after midnight here Bbj, spent the entire day at home, sleeping, waking up, sleeping some more... I recognise the symptoms, I am getting depressed again. Trying to avoid reality. My kids will be back Wednesday. Another school year starts soon with me not having my ife in order...
You know Kalni that he is the broken one not you. You can't fix him. Are you still seeing your T? Sounds like it is time for a visit.
You said when he stayed you were the only obstacle to his happiness you were wrong. His weekness was his in his way, not you. Like my H, your H would rather look like the good guy and go through the motions than to be honest with the person he promised to love forever.
Stay strong!
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Yes, it's time for my T to help out a bit. But most of all I need to meet with stbxh and talk to him face to face. I have questions I need to ask.
I remembered today around March 2007, I thought I was pregnant. From their mails, that must have been the time she got pregnant too. I remember H loosing it completely when I told him, I now know why he reacted that way back then... God it must have sucked to be him at times...!! K
As miserable as this dark time is, I think it is important to experience it. You have a few more days to wallow in it. The kids will be home soon and life will begin to move forward. Better be prepared for the answers stbxh may give. If he'll speak the truth I'd be surprised. take care
Your father's light saber. This is the weapon of a Jedi Knight. Not as clumsy or random as a blaster; an elegant weapon for a more civilized age. For over a thousand generations, the Jedi Knights were the guardians of peace and justice in the Old Republic. Before the dark times... before the Empire.
Yes, it's time for my T to help out a bit. But most of all I need to meet with stbxh and talk to him face to face. I have questions I need to ask.
I remembered today around March 2007, I thought I was pregnant. From their mails, that must have been the time she got pregnant too. I remember H loosing it completely when I told him, I now know why he reacted that way back then... God it must have sucked to be him at times...!! K
You said in the email she said they survived "a pregnancy scare"...could it have been yours? Maybe they freaked b/c they thought YOU were pregnant?? Just a thought...
