I'm sure that you know this, but I will tell you again in case you don't realize it: Listen to Serenity!
There have been many people offer you great advice, but she has been with you the entire time you have been here. You are lucky to have such wise counsel.
Anyway, my advice is about the AD meds.
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The anti-depressants will help however it isn't an overnight process....They take time to get in and work
Very true. Also, it may take a few tries to find one that works for you. It definitely is not one size fits all. The meds are just a tool, though. You still have to dig down deep and find the strength that you need. They did help me after about 2 1/2 months. Hopefully, they will allow you to control your emotions and even out your moods so you can look at things more clearly and see the work that you need to do.
Continued prayers, you have all the help you need to handle this!
Also, it may take a few tries to find one that works for you. It definitely is not one size fits all. The meds are just a tool, though. You still have to dig down deep and find the strength that you need.
Exactly.
Due to my bi-polar, I have had to switch different meds quite a few times during the past year...Some I absolutely hated due to different side effects however I have been off and on meds since I was 17... I am used to trying different cocktails until it is mixed correctly...You may only need one for a few short months...Mine is a lifetime...
It is no secret I hate meds...I used to hate that I had to take medication to get through life...Now, I have finally accepted that while I do have to take meds and yes I do have bipolar, it is all part of the wonderful package you see.
It is just a small portion of the woman I am...
Another portion to be thankful for because that is what makes me, me.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
After about a month, you will likely begin to feel the effects. I started 20mg celexa for a month and just bumped up to 40mg and now i feel alot better and dont seem to have any side effects.
Take care James, your gonna be just fine.
M 36 W 29 Together 2 1/2 years married 14 months Daughter 15 months Bomb 4/22/10 Separated since 4/25/10 OM 6/10/10 Hopeful, but moving on
i've done pretty well with celexa and trazadone in the past. The thing is how do I start to care? I really don't care anymore. I'm going to rescedule my appointment. I have to I had a diabetic seizure and partial coma and my body is not up to leaving the house and having to wait for 5 or 6 hours to get back home and rest. So I'll schedule it in the afternoon when my father is off and I'll go later this week
thanks for all the replies
waw 36 (spiritual covenant and common law marriage)me 32 together 13 mos. Bomb dropped march 2nd 2010
children SD (8) S (10) S (3) need help from anyone with my sitch
journaling. I guess this will be my new thread since the other thread is locked.
Well I talked to mutual friend last night. We both apologized for things that were said and done. Big misunderstanding as well as both of us having been friends too long.
I had called mutual friend earlier and she stated I was pretty much out of it. That I was ranting and raving (not shouting though) and pretty much "not there." She said she told me to find something to eat with juice and I told her I'd eat a popsicle.
Then I ended up having a seizure and passing out. I woke a little later and felt groggy and sluggish with a major major headache.
So fast forward to me talking to mutual friend later that night. I explained to her how her talking to WAW about her situation with her FIANCE' (they are having issues) indirectly caused problems in my M because WAW tried to compare and took bits and pieces of conversations and applied it to me and her. Mutual friend apologized and said that was never her intent. We had a long long talk about everything. It seems that WAW has not been being honest again.
Mutual friend also told me that I was really acting weird earlier and she was so concerned that she called WAW after she got off the phone with me earlier that day because she was concerned about me and my diabetes and my health. She does not reside in our state.
She stated that she informed WAW about my behaviour and how weird it was and how I sounded like I was drugged up with slurred speech and it reminded her of her grandmother who also has diabetes and would act the same way. WAW stated to her "oh he's probably just having a seizure."
Now lets look at that comment. Im just having a seizure. No text or call to make sure your H is ok. No signs of concern. No phone call to any of my family members especially knowing that they work and I’m the only one here. Not a single thing. That hurts like hell but what can I do? Obviously she does not care about me anymore. This woman has seen me in the hospital because of this and you don’t even check to see if I’m alright. *sighs*
Back to conversation. So mutual friend tells me how WAW is happy because she got to get her antidepressants and get help. But mind you she’s “so mad” at me because I had her go there. How I set her up and all this other stuff.
I tell mutual friend everything. She tells me things about her sitch and she begins to realize the similarities she thought were there are not there. She states she’s going to email WAW and tell her how she really feels about her behavior towards me. Don’t know if it will have an affect. She tells me how WAW is over her mother’s house. She states that she thinks WAW is acting the way she is due to her meds as well because the behavior I explained about her and about me (she understands diabetes totally and why I acted the way I did a lot and said she will tell WAW) and she said that it’s not right. All of a sudden it’s like she seems to understand what I’ve been telling her about everything. She apologizes and so do I.
It really freaking hurts to know that someone attempted to tell WAW I was very sick and she didn’t even contact me to find out if I was ok. I guess there’s nothing for me to do but move on. I would never ever ever let that happen to her. Even throughout our separation I have been there for her whenever she’s needed me. It hurts but maybe there’s no love there anymore. I don’t know.
I need to lay down. I don’t feel all that hot. The room is spinning a little and I feel like I’m about to puke or have another seizure this morning. I’ll have to figure out how to deal with this stuff on my own.
waw 36 (spiritual covenant and common law marriage)me 32 together 13 mos. Bomb dropped march 2nd 2010
children SD (8) S (10) S (3) need help from anyone with my sitch
I am sorry to hear you had a rough night and I hope today is a better day for you.
Originally Posted By: james217
Now lets look at that comment. Im just having a seizure. No text or call to make sure your H is ok. No signs of concern. No phone call to any of my family members especially knowing that they work and I’m the only one here. Not a single thing. That hurts like hell but what can I do? Obviously she does not care about me anymore. This woman has seen me in the hospital because of this and you don’t even check to see if I’m alright.
I am going to say this again...Actually Trent should be here saying it because he reminds me of this about 67 times a week - You are expecting the W you knew to respond - She isn't that person right now...The person she is now doesn't care - I know that isn't what you want to hear however I am not here to sugarcoat it for you...She doesn't care in the frame of mind she is in and the quicker you can understand that, the better off you will be.
Originally Posted By: james217
Even throughout our separation I have been there for her whenever she’s needed me.
No matter how hard it is - Stop. Doing. This.
You need a better support system then you have in place right now...You need to be able to draw strength when your reserve is running low...I surround myself with people who respect my decision...People who won't allow me to have pity parties all day long...People who love me and care for my well-being...Believe it or not the majority of my supporters are people I have met here...Each one has something different to offer...
Some take a kind and gentle approach while others don't...They all mesh well with me and my circumstances and because of their support I am where I am today...These are people whom I have never met IRL yet would do anything in the world for...
I still have my Pastor...My Church family...My MIL...My family etc...However they don't know exactly how I am feeling and the ones here do...
Originally Posted By: james217
I’ll have to figure out how to deal with this stuff on my own.
Based on what I have read from you, you know you are never alone...He is right there waiting for you to cast your burdens on Him instead of trying to do it on your own...
That was one of the hardest lessons I had to learn - I had to get to the point where I was on my knees begging Him to take it from me because I couldn't do it on my own anymore.
My Faith is still tested however I am learning as I walk...It gets easier to turn it over to Him with practice.
Remember what I said yesterday - This is your choice...Choose joy or choose sorrow.
(((((Hugs)))))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
Are you familiar with the Full surrender prayer. Google it, look it up, I think it is time you let "God" handle this for you. Take care of your responsibilites and let go of the other stuff. It is hard I know, but you are cared about by many people and it shows great strength to acknowledge when things are more than you can bare. I felt similar things to what you did, and to this day realize I can not handle this worlds issues without the Good Lord's guidance and grace. Peace and Prosperity, do not be hard on yourself and you are what you think.
Think of yourself as an overcomer waiting to blossom, not a victim and better days are ahead. Know he will answer your prayers, in "His" time, trust and have faith. Once you hold on to hope and faith and let go of what was or what happened, he can go to work on you and transform things in ways you can not imagine. It will be good! Peace and Prosperity to you James 217
Married:10 years D final 8/28/08 10 minutes is all it took Life goes on and DB was no small part in growing from the Divorce!
Thank you my friend!