Need some help to regain perspective!

[lost1234]

OK, The girls and I have moved, things are beginning to settle down even if just a little! lol!

Busy with softball and the other summer fun! If it would only STOP raining!

H and I have been getting along wonderfully, he is here alot, and has spent the night more in the past several weeks than he has the past 10 months!

He talks about many things that refer to the future...ie building a master suite over the garage, what we will do as far as the "forest" that the house is built in ...

Has bought little thoughtful things for me and me for him...we have been LAUGHING together...out loud!

Chartering started this past weekend...for once...I can honestly say that when I said Have fun and be safe...I MEANT it, no resentment or anger...maybe jealous that we werent going but rain was in the forecast anyways! lol!

after being at camp those 3 days...he came here!


he has just started back to work...FINALLY! YAY!! trying to just stay on the upside of it all while I still do for myself and the girls. great PMA until yesterday...

My mil is an alcoholic...always has been and I know you guys are gonna say...why listen to her...Im not and I didnt even breathe a word to h...yesterday was his first official day at work, didnt want to add any pressure...
its just really bothering me...

I look back 6 months and can say wow! what a difference! in both of us! I have grown so much! so proud! h has reached out and since his t levels are up he was able to start on an a/d...

so she calls and starts on the h is NEVER coming home...he is giving you false hope...he would have divorce you if he had the money... WAIT A MINUTE!!! an I blind and stupid??? I sure hope not!

WHY do people do this crap?

I even went as far in ic, that if I were ever to find out of OW, I am ready to work through it...still no evidence of one tho...

MY FAMILY is what is important...I love my h, If it were his heart...I would never walk away...

sorry if im rambling...need to journal a little to get it out!

thanks...input is appreciated!

[Marked&Healed]

Just wanted to say you sound great. Those little positives really help recharge us and keep us going, don't they?

[lost1234]

Yes, they do! I can feel it in my heart...just not my mind!

upsetting that misery loves company!

[PEI]

Hey ... you sound great! Keep your PMA in tact! Remember that MIL likely listened to all his 'spew' and she knows nothing about DB and MLC etc. Pay it no mind.

Peace
PEI

[lost1234]

I know PEI! and thanks for the vote of confidence! lol!!!

sometimes, there is so much going on in life, that it doesnt take much to start the what if's up...not excusing myself...it is simply the truth! need to regroup, and keep movin on forward!

[lost1234]

I am down with myself! YUK!!!

I dont know if it is because of the new house, h's new hours at work and us not seeing him as often or what!

Its been raining for days and although i have so much to do I just want to take 1 day and do something fun with the girls! We deserve it!

H did stop by this am b4 going into work...that was a plus! maybe it really is just the weather and the overwhelming that comes with a move!