Todays devotional from 'Jesus Calling, Enjoying Peace In His Presence' by Sarah Young
I am involved in each moment of your life. I have carefully mapped out every inch of your journey through this day, even though much of it may feel haphazard. Because the world is in a fallen condition, things always seem to be unraveling around the edges. Expect to find trouble in this day. At the same time trust that My way is perfect, even in the midst of such messy imperfection. Stay conscious of Me as you go through this day, remembering that I never leave your side. Let the Holy Spirit guide you step by step, protecting you from unnecessary trials and equipping you to get through whatever must be endured.As you trudge through the sludge of this fallen world, keep your mind in heavenly places with Me. Thus the Light of My Presence shines on you, giving you peace and joy that circumstances cannot touch.
Blessings to you all today!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
Wow!! I just have to tell you all how deep H is in MLC. I just found out today that a so-called "friend" whom I though was helping me through all of this has actually been having an EA/possible PA with H who is living with the woman he left me for!!! Holy Crap, I am not even ticked off at H as I am so ticked off at this so called friend. She has her own issues too, she went through a divorce this year and she didn't even know my H until a couple of months before we split and she just knew him through me. Apparently he has been pursuing her and now she is reciprocating even though he is still married to me and living with another woman!! How crazy is that!! Lord help us all! I just wanted to go to her office and rip her head off. I mean, she has been there for me, through all of this, meanwhile meeting up and talking with my H daily!! Thankfully a mutual friend came clean and told me all about it and how this friend feels her allegiance is now more for my H and not me!!! Mind you all, her H left her for another woman!! Can we just say CRAZY!!!!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
Thank you!! I have recovered a bit. I just keep running all the conversations that I have had with these woman and just wonder what she has told my H. It is just frustrating!!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
Their Moral compass went out with the trash! I just have to tell you all that I bounced back pretty good and I just keep moving on. I am keeping my faith and I believe that is keeping me moving forward. I know that God does not want us to sit around and wait for our spouses to come back. He wants us to keep moving forward and working on ourselves. To become the best us God intended for us to be! Yes, I am still standing and frankly, I will forever, because I love my husband and I know God brought us together. But, God intends for us to live our lives to the fullest and I do NOT need a man to complete this journey!
God Bless you all!!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
Lorie, Read your second to the last sentence of your post above. How remarkable is it that you've come to the point where you've said that (and clearly mean it)?
Amazing progress :-)
M45 Bomb 6/09; EA 6/10; Divorced 1/11 Proud single mom of 7 little feline girls and one little feline boy "Fall down 53 times. Get up 54." -- Zen saying
I just wanted to stop in and say I am still kicking. I lurk every now and then, but my computer at home is on the blink, so I use my fone to lurk.
Not too much to catch you up on about my sitch. H is still deep, deep in the tunnel, his radio co host told me last night that H's ego is so big it is starting to bug people. H and the co host were in a demo derby last night and I got to see more of the ego inflation. Last week my grandmother passed away, a woman who loved my H very much and prayed for him daily. He didn't even contact our D16 to offer condolences and the first moment he sees us (at the county fair) he doesn't even address her or offer sympathy, he goes straight away talking about the demo derby car. She was disgusted and got up and left without saying a word. She just keeps saying he doesn't care about anyone else but himself. I don't even know what to say to her anymore. It hurts to see her hurt so much. I am the parent and can handle this, her I am not so sure sometimes. She says she is doing fine, but then I see her be so rude to him and this is not how I raised her. I have seen her act nicer to strangers than her own father.
Me, I am doing well, and seriously getting a life. A friend is letting me work in his office for a few hours a week off the books so I can make a little extra cash to help pay the bills. The full time job is still elusive at this point. But I keep looking. Thankfully, H still deposits his paycheck and I still pay all the bills with that and my unemployment. I still have not finished getting the house ready to put on the market. But, I have been so busy living my life! Some friends took D16 and I to Gatlinburg for the weekend and we had a blast. Last week was dealing with my Grandmother's death and this week is fair week, (BIG DEAL) and it keep D16 and I busy the whole week.
So for all the newbies out there, we do survive. For some it takes awhile to detach, but I can't express enough how important that is and how it helps. Learn to live your life like your spouse is never coming back. Trust your spouse to God and keep moving, joy and happiness will find it's way back into your life. Even when your spouse is a monster and says bad things to you and about you. Life is good, you just have to find the positive and run with it. Be a survivor! The only victims are the children who are involved, be a survivor role model and teach them how to move forward as best at you can.
Blessings to all!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
