Can my rollercoaster ride ever end?

[a girl]

Long and winding road.

My other threads are here:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2163385#Post2163385

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2167843#Post2167843

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2170802#Post2170802

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2173348#Post2173348

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2177609#Post2177609

Guess between my journaling and my complaining, I got up over 100 posts again.

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2187363&page=12

Was doing better, but had a bad night last night. Differently, bad, though - no longer missing him in that "hope he comes back" way - just missing the person I thought he was, which is definitely not the person he turned out to be.

I have to say that since the realization that he very likely has NPD, it's been easier. Not *easy*, but *easier*.

Just wishing the rollercoaster ride would end.

[~¤DG¤~]

I hear ya about wanting the roller coaster ride to end.
I've been hoping that for a good 4 months now.

I don't know if it helps or not, but I went back and read my first few threads on here and helped to realize how far I've come and how strong I am.

You have been doing amazing. I know it may not seem like it, but you have.
I'm very proud of you.

[a girl]

Well, the was-band is back in town after neglecting his son to spend a long weekend with his adulteress (why yes, I am in the "anger" phase).

We're meeting with our family therapist tomorrow because he wants a 3/4 split on visitation, effective as soon as possible. So not a good idea for our son, so we'll be quarreling about that.

Awesome.

Honestly, if not for how much I absolutely adore S7, I would regret ever having met this jerk.

[~¤DG¤~]

I can relate to that feeling as well.
When my ex-h and I split up, I despised him for all he did to me and our kids. It took a long time, and a lot of growing up on both of our parts, to get over that.
We actually have a very amicable relationship now, although I look at him and can't believe I ever loved or shared my life with him.
He's a stranger to me.
Regardless, if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have my kids, and I love my kids.

[a girl]

Not looking forward to the meeting today - I just know he's going to be difficult and stubborn.

[JustStunned]

They are never pleasent I'd rather poke myself with a sharp stick.

You'll hold it together and get through it. Hold firm on what is important to you and your son.

[~ kd ~]

hey Guhrrrl... jest thinkin' about you... hope you are well...

[NTX_Dad]

hey girl, are you doing ok?