I'm glad you found a more workable pace for school. Hang in there.
Interesting that you get mad at the equipment at work. I have a friend with a frequent, hot temper. Becoming an electrician cured her. She said that she pretty quickly learned that her blowups sapped her energy and she really needed all of it to get to the end of the day.
Whatever your schedule, make sure it's not so much that it interferes with being safe and focused at work. We like you in one piece!
i get mad cuz our equipment is junk. i work for a multi million dollar company and we have the worst equipment. its my job to run it all as i m certified for it. my anger isnt what it seems. its more of a frustration thing. when you are expected to perform at a certain pace and it is not possible because the equipment cant physically keep up i get irritated. as far as throwing fits.. being an electrician has helped me tremendously. if you are freaking out, you can die. especially with the amount of power i work with. im also the high voltage guy in my division. 5000 volts and up. keeps me honest..lol
wednesday is d-day. found out a bunch of stuff. STBX is trying to get full custody. she just lost her job. she didnt pick up the kids until the day after she was supposed to. said she was helping her mom. truth came out on sunday. she was with OM in a different state. he wouldnt wake up so they missed their plane. he is still married btw. she wants my 401k and back pay for her"contribution" to the family unit. i still dont have a lawyer. Social services told me she is trying to get papers saying im a child abuser. their legal department told her and her lawyer it wasnt going to happen. they did their investigation and found me to be an excellent father. the investigator told me i couldnt have a better judge for my case. hopefully shes right.
with all this going on, all i can do is try to stay positive. keep being a good dad, taking care of me and praying. there has to be a light at the end of this tunnel. im going to get through this. acting as if is helping. i get down on myself sometimes. i still love her. not the same way, but i still do. i think i always will. we had some really good times. she was my best friend. i dont understand her meanness, and i dont think i ever will. it doesnt really matter. all i know is i love myself too much to put myself back on her rollercoaster.
I've just caught up on your sitch. I'm so sorry that happened to you, but really proud of how you handled the situation and that's all you can do. Try to be proud of how you react.
So D-day came and went. there was no fanfare. time didnt stop. pretty much a normal day i guess. ex is completely insane i have realized. was in court for 6.5 hrs because the agreement her, her L and i came to wasnt good enough when the judge came in to rule on it. i was going to pay her $4000 out of my 401k and let her have the tax return which is about $5000. she flipped out over her student loans and wanted to testify as to why she deserved it. it turned into her telling half truths and trying to drag me through the mud. i shut my mouth and endured it. then i was called to testify. her L tried to say that i spent money that i shouldnt on drugs and alcohol. that backfired as i was then able to say she shared equally in that use to which he had no rebuttal. then he tried to question my money still being spent on booze and my latest dui. didnt go good because im almost 18 months sober and can prove it!
So the judge went to chambers for about a half hour. then her L made a closing statement and I made mine. the result of all todays bs was this... 50/50 custody, $300 a month child support possibly( we go to a mediator for that, and she convieniently lost her job 3 weeks ago)reason for divorce is irreconcilable differences, we each claim one child and its up to us to figure out head of household, and i have to pay her $1000. not to bad considering i didnt have a L and she wanted $20000 for back payment. i wonder if she wishes she would have taken the $9000 i offered her...
oh well, stressful day is now over. i am officially divorced. i know that i tried everything i could and honestly looked at myself and made changes.. for the better. time to move on to my next chapter..
BRIT!!!!!!!!! hey you!! how are you.. long time, no talk.. i hope you are doin well!
