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[bhopeful]

Hi all. I know that it's been an extremely long time since I've posted anything, but know that I've been busy DBing. Things are going better than I could have ever imagined. What a treat it is to be in a loving relationship again... With the same woman!

I was away from home for a few days over last weekend and she decided to write me a note. I feel like I should share it, so here goes:


Dear bhopeful,

It's been forever since I wrote you a letter and for some reason I feel like writing you now. Maybe it's because I found that old box of yours full of love letters that I used to write you back in the day. I've been thinking about you a lot today. Thinking about how much I miss you and how much I want a hug.

I want you to know how happy I am with you. I don't know if I will ever be able to fully forgive myself for the hurt that I caused you but all I can do is be thankful that you took me back. You never gave up on me, even when I gave up on myself... You never gave up on love. That is so admirable. I feel like I want to go back in time and change the way that things happened with us. But I know that focusing on the past does nothing to move things foward. That is why I guess I'm just simply living for the now... and in the now, in this moment, I miss you and love you more than ever.
I love you to the moon.
W

We're also taking a trip across country in a couple weeks that we're both really looking forward to. We'll be gone 11 days and will be traveling to different states visiting friends. Hopefully we'll be able to spend some time at the ocean too. W hasn't ever seen it, so she's pretty stoked about it.

So, other than being really busy at work, that pretty much sums up how things are going right now. I've stopped having bad dreams about her leaving again, so that's nice. It was kind of strange when she came back because it seemed pretty sudden and I wasn't completely prepared. I was working so long and hard at DBing that I didn't really think about what it would be like when she actually came back. I adjusted fairly quickly though.

I hope that everything is going well for all of you. I didn't forget about you. I feel like I just needed some time away from here for my own heeling. I don't know if that makes any sense, but it is what it is...

Peace,
B

[hopeforfuture]

That's a wonderful letter. Glad to hear things are still going well.