lodo, you did much better with those deliveries than I would have if H was moved out. I would have marked return to sender!
Is this the weekend you're headed out on your trip and W stays at your house? make up some rummage sale signs and put tags on W's stuff. Or a pile marked donation.
If running is part of your therapy try to clear your mind of W thoughts and use that to totally refresh yourself. Let those exercise endorphins flow!
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Yep - heading out tomorrow AM. I'm running around today trying to get everything done. I'd love to box up W's stuff and tell her it's all in the garage, but I don't want to give her any help. She can have the fun of boxing her stuff up all by herself. I just bet, though, that when I get back she won't have done much. Anyone want to take on that bet?
Felt down this AM. I hate that she's so cold right now. I guess she is just trying to make her decision stick after those weeks of going back and forth. I just feel disbelief sometimes that I really was with this person for 12 years and never knew she could be so cruel. Actually, that's a lie. During our break-up 9 years ago, I realized it. Guess that's what helps me realize that she needs to fix herself as much as I need to fix my problems. Doesn't look like she's doing much though.
Oh well, I'm looking forward to my time away. Hate that I'll be coming back to D papers, but there it is.
I'm pissed - we're together 12 years and she can't say a single g*dd*mn word to me that she's unhappy?! She thinks the solution is to throw everything away and start up with some new guy? One day she can curl up next to me in bed and the next she can't even look at me without grimacing?!
What the hell -
6 more months I've got to deal with this. 6 more months - think she'll keep acting like a b*tch? I go out of my way to be positive, validate, act as if, and stay confident and collected while she's all over the place. And after months of being friends how does she act? Like she has to avoid me at all costs. Like she has to make a show of not being happy to see me if we run into each other. Like she has absolutely no conception of what the word "rude" means.
Please, someone tell me it gets better!
Now I know why the liquor store in my old neighborhood had bumper stickers saying, "Beer colder than your ex-wife's heart".
Hey lodo, I really don't have any advice to give, just wanted to say I am here, (and the room is pretty empty right now) if you want to keep ranting, I have a glass of wine and my H fell asleep on the couch. I can keep you company while you vent.
Me~34 H~38 D6.5
EA/PA-DEC.07
Moved out~Apr.13,08 Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08 No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009
LOL - thanks Neecy. You just ruined my ranting disposition by making me laugh.
H fell asleep on couch - how romantic. I imagine my W is sitting in her office, where she'll be for another 5 hours after everyone else has gone home for the weekend.
queasy is begining to be the norm for me, I was thinking that the other day at work, like when was the last time I felt normal. That being said I am feeling very bubbly and energetic the last few days, come jump on the happy train with me for a few minutes!
Sorry I am not crazy just trying to make you smile!
Me~34 H~38 D6.5
EA/PA-DEC.07
Moved out~Apr.13,08 Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08 No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009
lol - yep, here I am on the happy train! I think I'd better get a glass of wine first ... or a couple.
Glad you've felt good the last few days. I'll be okay again - just one of those "everything converges" moments. Heading out to dinner with a good friend tonight, so that'll help.
Or a pile marked donation.