Everyone has already said it! But keep breathing, and love yourself. Take care of your kids, and your dad. Don't focus on what might happen, or what might not happen. That's going to come, anyway.
Jeff, Have I said enough times yet that I really did miss you and next time you will have to bribe me to let you go again?
Woog, "It does go one. Remember? " No, I don't. I don't even know what you mean...
I am switching mode and mood. Let's see if I can pull this off. I talked to my C on the phone. She said I am worried that his decision won't allow me any hope to hold on to. True. But, what can I do about it? Not much if anything. I'll sit back and let it come to me, whatever it is... Kalni
Sorry I wasn't around earlier. I think you underestimate your own strength- you are very strong inside- look how far you've come and how you'r supporting everyone around. Tat says something about who you are- someone pretty amazing.
This is a rollercoaster. Go with it- some times will be more difficult than others. I agree with C that the pressure of expecting a decision from H is getting to you. Let go of them if you can- whatever he decides doesn't mean it's the end if you don't want it to be. And honestly, it doesn't have to be bad- since he said he would fight you on a D, I think the worst will be no decision yet. A year isn't too long in Db terms, according to the stats I compiled, BTW.
Lisa, when you gonna let us have these stats !?? Email them to me and Maria!?
I understand what you say about why do you have to always be the strong one? I was too, for my BF, I supported him through a career change, a Msc, his dads illness and death, moving away, renovating the houses, I drove all of that, I did ALL the finances, I got us our house...the list goes on. I just want someone to look after me for a change, I know I am strong, but I am tired of it. And I feel sad too, its natural.
It really resonated with me, what your C said, I guess thats what I am feeling too this week...that a decision is looming that will put an end to this endless hoping and wishing. But I agree with Lisa. It will be the end of this phase, but who knows what will happen down the line? I can tell you that whatever is said, it wont be "the end", because the planets are still in flux!
As you would say to me, I'm "feeling you" and I feel it too. Ali xxx
Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
If you still have your sense of humour then its a sure sign you are going to get better. We are all allowed down days I even had weeks of them !but you can't keep a good woman down for long and you are a good woman.
I think I'll be Ok. Nobody else than the people here can see me being down. So, I still have some of my mojo left...
Now, if I can only find a way to get that teacher out of the picture and make Woog get on a flight, everything would be as it should... (just for you naej)
K, I've been reading your thread every day and that is alot of reading. I don't have much to add to what others are saying about you. I had an inkling that the last few days of H's Euro trip would be the most difficult for you. You have stayed amazingly strong in spite of the fact that H went semi dark. When I started feeling better and a little less concerned about my W is when she seemed to come around. Coincidence....... maybe......maybe not. Unfortunately, we can only try to control our own inner feelings. Sadly, the WAS have the big end of the stick. I hope you feel better soon. You deserve to be happy.
