Ok I have a little time. The weather here has been foggy and cold except for today. It was nice. Son and I went to the movies and then to an army surplus store where I bought son a camouflage army Jacket. He said he wants to wear it everyday. Later in the jeep he told me he felt bad because his Mom just bought him his other jacket. I told him not to worry because he could not wear the army jacket everywhere we go. He asked "what do you mean I can't?' I told him if we go someplace nice or out to dinner you will need to bring the jacket mom bought you...
OK W has been calling. Most of the time it was about trying to help son get online through a network on my lap top. BUT.... She has always been finding an excuse to talk to me. She has been really nice. Really sounds interested in what we are doing. I can’t help wondering what she is up to. She has Never been this nice our whole marriage. Could I be seeing the Real Wife for the first time? Why can’t I just accept it? I am going with the flow right now but I feel something is up….then the good by kiss? She has not initiated a kiss in over a year... Today she told me her Mom wants me to buy a Lawnmower to keep at her house to make it easier for me to cut her lawn. And here I am Soooo trying not to plan anything beyond tomorrow for the last year. I think Saffie is right when she says that W is not going anywhere. BUT does wife realize how close I was / am to leaving myself? NO I am not going anywhere until after I give Retro a chance but I will say I have given her so much space and distanced so far that I have not really thought of myself as married for the last month at least Well I need to go play some more video games talk to ya later...
Husband
Saffie, yoyo, sara and Nikki ya got mail
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Like you said, wait until retro, the fact that she is willing to go, gives you a kiss, is wanting to talk to you, tells you something. She wants to be there. Stop second guessing everything, I know your hesitate.. but you'll be ok
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Nothing really to explain. I just told him they were my friends...
I was / am a little worried how YOU will explain to your H's how this California dude on the beach knows ya... That is why I used you’re on line names.....
Son did not want to go to fern Canyon today. (It takes about an hour to get there) So the weather was better so we went back out to the beach. We found a bunch of sand dollars. Then I let son Drive the Jeep. (FIRST TIME) Last year I let him sits on my lap and do it but I think the steering wheel must have moved because there was not enough room between the wheel and my belly for him to sit this year. He did really well. It is hard to drive on sand. The jeep kind of floats on top of the sand so it does not respond right away. We then built the first sand castle. This was the "practice" one. If we get out there on time tomorrow (low tide) we will build the real one. I emailed some pics...\later This is the first year I did not have to sneak off to have a smoke. I still get the urge and the store is right across the street… but I can do this….. I can hold out. I am not craving anything it is totally habit/ the rush right now I am fighting…
Husband / Dr Love
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
Son Does not want to go to the woods so we just hung around the beach. I will e-mail some more pics. Got a little sun burnt yesterday on just one arm and my neck... Yep the "farmers" arm the one that hangs out the window and now I am a red neck. Today is our last day and I think we are both ready to go home. W called when we were out at the beach. Something about problems with the Garage door not closing right. I told her what to check and if that don't work park outside...
THEN she called about the fish tank. She was concerned because the pump "didn't seem right" and the fish were just lying on the bottom. I told her how to clean the pump but if she wanted there is an extra little pump that she can hook up and that will work until I got home. She called back about an hour later and said she cleaned out the pump and it is working allot better. I told her great. She said it was about 100 there. (She does not take the heat well) 20 MORE DAYS TILL RETRO
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
