Uneventful night. Slept pretty well actually, thanks to the meds my dr. gave me!
H called late to talk to S. I answered not realizing it would be him (one of our phones has no caller ID). He was in a hallway somewhere, I assume at the restaurant. It was really echo-y.
I passed the phone over to S with minimal words to H. S told H how we had all been playing all night, how S and D cuddled me in bed and read books, all the happy family stuff we have been doing. I am sure it made H squirm and I love it!(evil I know)
So anyway nothing new today. Just more organizing. I was already making his/her boxes. Today I am moving all of his boxes out to the garage. Don't need them in the house taking up space....
I'm so happy to hear about the time you've been spending with your kids. I don't know who it helps more, you or them! I think it is so great for the three of you. Hang in there, you are great!
I watched that Taylor Swift clip last night and was stunned. That girl is something else! A couple other country western gals that write there own songs that I really like are Jewell and Mary Chapin Carpenter.
I caught up on your recent turn of events last night, but your thread was locked and I didn't know what to say anyway. I did fantasize about becoming a cheating spouse vigilante and driving the 4 hours to Long Beach...
You sound great his morning. You are so out of his league.
Hang in there, kiddo.
M: 37 H: 36 Married: Aug 13, 2004 Decision to Divorce: July 20, 2008 Reconciled: September 2008 Current: Ambivalence
Yes, today I feel a sense of calm and acceptance. Because I know I did all I could do, I feel I did MORE than all I could do if that is possible.
He is the one who made the wrong choices, he is the one who will look back and have to live with those choices. Not me. I can live with my choices, the one thing that upsets me most though is the kids have to suffer the consequences of all of this.
All I want now is an extra 12 hours in the day--just today! Because there is so much I would LOVE to have done before H gets here. I just want the house hollowed out/empty before then, but not enough time....
Anyway, doing well today. Considering...looking forward to wine tonight with the friend whose husband worked with H.
It warms my heart that you feel that way about yourself, there is no reason IMO why you should feel any different. The kids are lucky to have you as a mom, they have a good person in which to draw and learn from.
A glass or 2 of wine & a friend sounds like a good way to end a horrorific & emotional week. Keep being who you are turning out to be through all of this, a strong, independant woman.
I appreciate your thoughts on D17, I know in my heart that it's a mistake and things will be fine.
BBJ, I guess I can't go on vacation without things falling apart I'm sorry your H is such a DAM. Go dark, really dark. I did that is best I could the last time my H told me he wanted a D and I saw him trying to get back into my life. I still don't hold out hope for us, but it is a start.
(((((BBJ)))))
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Sorry I haven't been around. Crazy day today. Take it slow, will you? What you want still hasn't change. I suppose you realised that the HOW and WHEN to get it is a bit different from what you hoped for. It's OK. Take it easy and rest some, before your body tells you to. K
I'm sorry your H is such a DAM. Go dark, really dark. I did that is best I could the last time my H told me he wanted a D and I saw him trying to get back into my life. I still don't hold out hope for us, but it is a start.