Hey wdid, I had a good time, met a girl I haven't seen since last year 2007 single and good looking, but a little to young and spoiled for my taste, played some cards, had a full evening.
W did not take the kids to church, as I stated earlier, D9 had a basketball tournament, bad time on a Sunday didn't expect W to take them to church.
I'm doing fine, was thinking the other night when kids were in bed, about what W was doing, she wasn't working, she hadn't seen or talked to the kids, wondering how a person could stand not being around their own kids,
W has been strange lately, called me one night out of the blue said she wanted to know how the kids were doing, told me today she had to work Saturday (like I care) this has no bearing on my life if she works or doesn't on any given day. Gave me a compliment in a round about way also today. Sending me emails (group) but OM e-mail address is not on the ones referencing God, friendships or prayer, he is included only on the ones that contain jokes or something funny (I just delete her emails, especially the ones with OM email address)
I really don't pay any attention to her, or strike up any conversations with her, I respond if she asks me anything and limit my responses. I never call her and I never ask her any questions. Waiting for D paperwork should get it in the mail any day now, I'm sure its going to be some fun reading.
Thank you for checking in on me, I'm keeping very busy very busy.
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D7, D7, S6 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08
W was over to pick up kids to take them to school Friday. She was trying to joke around with me, that was wierd, said she had to work Saturday (all day) couldn't make D9 or D7/D7 basketball games, I relized something about my feelings for W - comes down to just 2 words: LOW EXPECTATIONS
This pretty much sums up everything from reconciliation to her wanting to be with the kids, or anything else relating to W.
I on the other hand have high expectations of my life, of having fun with the kids, getting my life in order, meeting someone, living a full and happy life.
Right now my life is in a holding pattern until D is final, then I'll be off and running, kids are already off and running - through the house chasing each other screeming - like kids do when they are playing - have to remind them to use their inside voice. This is the stuff W could not handle
Thank you for checking in on me.
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D7, D7, S6 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08
W called this morning ??? just after I woke up the kids and asked if she was taking the kids to school, she has been picking them up for school since school started. She then asked about taking D7/D7 to their basketball practice on Wednesday nights at 5:30, to help out with the kids, I told her I was fine, that we basically get home, get something to eat and head off to drop them off, not a big deal.
She then went into a discussion about how she is watching her fathers dog while he is in Las Vegas with his buddies, how much work it was how she didn't think her father knew how much work it was taking care of the dog, its just like taking care of a child her words not mine, I just thought to myself how quickly they forget what its really like to take care of a child fulltime.
When W came over to pick up the kids, she kept following me around the kitchen like she wanted to tell me something without the kids hearing, I just ignored her, it may be she had a new hair cut and wanted me to notice her, I don't even look at her anymore, I just kept doing what I do every morning, cleaning the morning dishes and getting the kids ready for school. I do think I saw out of the corner of my eye that she did have a new hair cut.
W is wierd, this whole D thing is wierd, looking forward to the next phase of my life. Its going to be tuff, I'm shy
Thank you for checking in on me.
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D7, D7, S6 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08
Your W reminds me so much of my one newly divorced friend (divorced twice). Major psychological problems. I can't wait until you have some peace to your situation, and I hope she gets help.
Yeah, shy guy, drives mini-van, 4 kids in tow, the women will be fighting each other to get at me
W called me at work she was so proud of the kids report cards, all had A's and B's, kept complimenting me on how well I'm taking care of the kids, heard the same speach, about how she cannot handle the chaos involved with 4 kids and how well I deal with the kids and how she can't take it. I said thank you, thinking to myself of what I wanted to say, something to the effect, is that how you justify cheating on me because you cannot handle the chaos of 4 beautiful children
I know that's part of her problem, she has other issues, but I did everything I could for her, she was always allowed to sleep late and I took care of the kids every weekend (she worked Saturday nights) Anytime she wanted to get away, I said go, we planned weekends together just the two of us, and we would get a babysitter for those one night outings. Apparently not enough for her. I wanted to tell her to GO TO HE double hockey sticks - who wouldn't but I bit my lip and now I'm venting here - thank you for letting me vent.
All better now, I haven't been able to sleep lately, midnight or 1:00am before I get to bed and I'm up at 5:30am, don't know what it is, lot on my mind, job, W, kids, D, finances, future, house work, etc.
Thank you for checking in on me.
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D7, D7, S6 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me New Abbreviation = WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08
I have those sleep issues for the past year. Try Melatonin it can help. You can find it in the nutrition/vitamin section. I might be all the stress, even if you don't acknowledge it, it is there.
Lots of women are going to jump at the chance to be with you. Don't you doubt it! Hugs.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
I have those sleep issues for the past year. Try Melatonin it can help. You can find it in the nutrition/vitamin section. I might be all the stress, even if you don't acknowledge it, it is there.
kat
I like to exercise too, and find myself having more sleep problems if I don't work out for a couple days. Jeff, don't worry, you'll find just the right person I know, someone who will love you and believe in marriage and not be crazy!
- like kids do when they are playing - have to remind them to use their inside voice. This is the stuff W could not handle
