Stepping out and Stepping UP!

[cagzmom]

thank you for sharing snowmm. It is good to know that at some point the pain will change..

[TRUSTING]

Cagz,

My dear friend. I could not agree with you more..
I can't believe these people and the damage they do.
My ex is trying to make OW me.
OW wants my life, my children, and all all all my ex's money.
Sometime this makes me so insane.

I want all this to end.

I know it will.

I know WE will be so much better and stronger.

I know that we will be blessed.

[cagzmom]

I want to agree with you T. I DO! I have to believe it!!

My heart is heavy today. Went to Child Enforcement and signed the paper to let them take over. He has been so wishy washy with paying some/all and not at all...the inconsistancy is disrespectful and exhausting. NO MORE. yet I hurt for him..how wierd is that.

I want it to end to - yet we have to keep goign through it. It seems as there is no reprieve for us. We have to keep goign forward. I want peace and rest...

[cagzmom]

stupid stupid stupid me.

too many glasses of wine.
sons car got his tire stolen off the back.

called x.

too many questions - i am a fool.

[TRUSTING]

Sweetheart,

Your in pain. You miss him. It is normal, he is not.

Let go.

He is not the same person he use to be right now.

We are here for you.

Let God be your spouse for the season.

He will not let you down.

Closure has to come from ex, you cannot force him into it.

Trusting

[cagzmom]

Trusting is so right.

I think for so long everything I did was to try and "get my marriage back." now it is all about doing things that are best for me..and that is so wierd.

For me dark is good. I just have to go really really dark... FOR ME!! Contact with him brings me saddness and all of the questions...and I want to be done with the questions.

I do know this.. sometimes when I look forward and think about someone else in my life it is a thought that I dont like. At least with x you know what to expect... The "same" seems so much safer - and so often you just want what was..

[cagzmom]

had coffee with my dearest friend yesterday.

so much hurt in the world. families falling apart literally just falling every where.

so much pain..so much lonliness...

[CMNM]

Hi Cagz!
How are you this weekend?
Doing anything exciting?

Hugs,
Pam

[cagzmom]

nothing exciting - which for me is probably good! HA!!

i have been wondering....how are you??

[CMNM]

Silly rabbit! I actually have my own thread. Ya mean you haven't been reading it religiously? Ha ha

P.