Well, that was a whole other story. If you were here in 04 when that bomb dropped, you would understand. I would stop short of wishing the bad circumstances tho. But after someone has really screwed you over, there is some level of satisfaction when things get difficult for them.
Lola, didn't you make some yummy chocolate tinis a few wks ago? That's sounding good tonight.
I am going to file it in Texas. As a matter of fact, I was looking up the paperwork this morning so I can do just that.
Seriously, this is getting insane, and I am so finished. I want closure, I want to move on with my life. He won't get it filed. So cie la vie...I am going to do it my damned self!!!
Choco-tini's anyone? It is 5:00 somewhere in the world...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Oh yes. me too. I'm late from work so I've missed the 5:00 cocktail hour. But it must be 5 somewhere. I am so please to know you are going to file in Texas. If you want things done right, might as well do 'em yourself.
I did it. Prepared the paperwork yesterday, and stuck them in the mail. There is this sense of relief that I cannot even begin to explain. I loved this man, and committed my life to him, but he broke that committment. I tried to resolve the situation and ended up growing up a lot, making changes that I needed to make, and came out a better person in the long run. I will take those changes with me. He will not.
I know now that for me, DBing was making sure I did everything I possibly could do to save my M. I can sleep at night knowing that I did not give up when the going got tough, but he did. And somewhere along the line, I was able to put it behind me. I said some things that probably weren't very nice, but it was okay because by that time, he deserved it. Now, I cherish the time I had with him, when he was my H, and realize that it was just not meant to be.
I am happier, healthier, stronger.
And I will drink to that!!!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Probably not...I emailed him a copy. No response, but frankly I don't care. When I get the filed copies back, I will send him one w/ the waiver of service, give him a week to get it back to me, and then have him served.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I guess I am normal. I was just sitting here, and this overwhelming sadness came over me. I really am having to fight back the tears. But it is a different kind of sadness...the acceptance of a marriage that could not be maintained, and the sadness for the woman who meant every word of her vows, and in the long run, it didn't matter. I always thought acceptance was supposed to make me feel better, but somehow there is this deep ache of loss, knowing that this is it. All the time I lived in limbo, and had no answers, I now have them. I know that I deserve better, and yet part of me still loves that stupid German.
This morning I felt relief. I still do, but it is coupled with a sadness that makes me want to cry. I have not cried over this in a long time, so I suppose I am a bit overdue...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
yes please!