Last nights function went well. My W was much more relaxed around me before we left. She told me a little about her day, witch is something she has not done for a while.
I tried to speak to her as I would a friend or colleague, without being over chatty or exited. I feel that I achieved this. We were both nice to each other at the event. There were 8 people at the table, so we were both involved in conversations most of the time so it was easier for me to not focus on W.
Just before we left we were asked to take a picture together. She put her arm around my waste, I thought this would be uncomfortable but it was not. As we were walking towards the door she put her hand on my waste again to guide me past a chair.
On the way home she was more withdrawn, she did say "Thank you" when we got home. I did not try to kiss or hug her just said thank you it was a nice evening.
The best way to describe the evening is pleasant.
For the first time I feel that I have made progress, not in my sitch but with me. For the first time I am not looking for instant rewards. While there were positives in last night, I see it for what it was, nothing more nothing less. My sitch is still the same today as it was yesterday.
I am happy with the way I handled myself, not with what my W did nor did not do. I had no expectations and therefore I was not disappointed.
Negatives for me today are that I do feel sad, Seeing her happy and looking so good is hard. I started to get the images of this being our last holidays together etc. I acknowledge the feelings and will let them pass on and not control me.
M: 30 W: 32 Married: 9 years s: 2.8 Bomb dropped: 7-10-09 same house, bed, no physical contact My sitch: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1871805&page=1
