The funny thing about cops and doughnut shops is.............it's frighteningly TRUE!!! I can't tell you how much powedered sugar I had to wash out of Gabe's uniforms between cleanings. He didn't even like doughnuts that much but that's where the guys hung out....there and Waffle House.
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
I was in a great mood after another night of late night shopping with (x)W and a little 'quality bonding' time spent afterwards.
But then I log in here this morning and a thread I've been "helping" sent my blood pressure through the roof and injected an instant reminder of the things (x)W has done and I'm in an internal conflict right now.
It was bad enough that she's off work today, and didn't respond to my message when I got home last night to let her know I'm safe (roads are icy). So that got my mind racing on the fact that OM lurks so close, he could be in and out and nobody would know the difference. That was enough to put me on edge.
But to now be reminded of all that traspired, I'm just shaking, litterally shaking. I've been catious during this entire month, that she changed to that horrid person and there's always a potential she could again. Really sucks because she sent me a really 'naughty (but nice ) message that I just couldn't respond to, didn't know what to say. Now she thinks I'm mad at her and had to tell her that somebody just really pissed me off and made me remember a lot of stuff I care not to.
Time for a smoke break and a long walk.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
Sorry to hear this Dylan. Perhaps its time to take a short break from the board for a day or two.
I've stopped reading new threads lately because of anger triggers being hit. I'll return to it later when I'm in a better place. For now I need a break and it sounds like you do too.
Well, tomorrow definatley forbeys being on-line, and the weekend is looking pretty booked with moving stuff around so a break will no doubt occur.
I just never really wanted to think of all the things she's done EVER again. When we were together last night, just cuddling, nothing too serious, it was like none of THAT ever happened, like a really bad dream. I just really want to scream bloody f'n murder right now to recant all that horrible stuff.
I seriously think it's also time to book a few sessions with the IC again.
Me 35/XW 33 S13 & S12 M: 10/17/98 OM & S: 07/08 D final 06/09/09 12/03/09 - 06/13/10 "Piercing" 06/13/10: Engaged to Re-marry 10/17/10 06/25/10: Expecting baby #3 2/14/11
That's ok, cops are such arrogant a**holes anyway! 
He didn't even like doughnuts that much but that's where the guys hung out....there and Waffle House.
) message that I just couldn't respond to, didn't know what to say. Now she thinks I'm mad at her and had to tell her that somebody just really pissed me off and made me remember a lot of stuff I care not to.