K, how can you even think of sex, much less enjoy it when you have all of this being dumped on you? You can't. Take care of you....you are a very important person and we all want to see you heal and become whole again. Please do not allow him to control or manipulate you. I'm worried about you.
Thank you for worrying about me. The thing is sex has been about the only thing holding us together over the last 4 years...I guess its just difficult cutting that last little thread.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
The thing is sex has been about the only thing holding us together over the last 4 years...I guess its just difficult cutting that last little thread.
Is it really just the sex? Think about this....or is it something deeper.
Only you know the answer.
These answer come with a strong sence of self...
It is in YOU...Kissak...
Don't be afraid to look at it.
Don't be afraid to take a stand for YOU.
Don't be afraid to make a choice or NOT to make a choice.
Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
well, its been the only connection I should say. Maybe I just still want to be wanted by him in some way, and this seems the only way now.
Digging and still thinking.....
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
WEll today has been a busy day for me...which is good for helping me keep my mind off of things.
H will not be home tonight. He is going to a funeral visitation for a friend of his. He did act a little more less mean to me yesterday. Got a hug when he went to work, and then last night when he went to a meeting. He offered the hugs I didnt ask for them. Which was nice for a change.
But dreading the weekend. They are always tougher because we are around each other more. BUT he does have a funeral this weekend, plus he has to work and I have plans also, so maybe it will be peaceful.
Hope everyone has a good weekend!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
WELL, everyone.....I did something some of you may not agree with, but I snooped. Was able to see my H's fb emails without him knowing about it. All my suspisions have been confirmed. The emails were full of different women that he texts and emails...lots of miss u's, lots of proof of affairs with married women...all of this before and since October of last year when he asked to come back home. Every thing makes so much sense to me now. I can not and will NOT put up with this. Now the hard part is confonting him with it....but it has to be done. I will never and can never trust him. He definitely has a problem.
I saw lots of "are you mad at me's, why wont you talk to me's, asking people if he can help with their problems....even one saying she would be with him if he werent married?????? ok....?? and sooo much other crap!! Im disgusted with him.
Its done for me. Over. Im trying to cool off before I confront him, so it definitely wont be tonight....I will not do this while I am steaming mad. Its been all I can do not to blow up at him today. I dont even wanna look at him. I have to make arrangments for my children to not be around too.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
Yes Cagz...I have someone to talk to. She is helping me to keep my cool.
It will be hard to never do this emotionally, but Im not really worried about what he will think, if he wants to turn it around on me, well, go ahead. Im no longer concerned what this man thinks. BUt I will cool off first. I will be calm.
I honestly believe all his sleepless nights lately are a result of having to keep all his lies straight!
I have thought about what to tell my kids....honestly I will keep it simple as can be and they will never know anything other than their dad and I cant live together.
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
