SHould I say I love you?

[gutwrenching]

You are going to look back at this a few weeks from now and be amazed how far you have come. Trust me. Been there, done that. We have all hit rock bottom from the bomb and in different ways.

You can handle it as Pinhead so accurately says. I see strength in you. Think about what your son needs from today, tomorrow, and next week too.

One day at a time. The rollercoaster will slow down

[ShockedOne]

This is the place to do your venting! The only other thing better is to have a friend you can vent to, who will keep it to themselves.

It is a roller coaster ride, all you can do is hold on and wait.

[JudoScott]

Most of all every time I think about doing something rash I think how I don't want to disappoint my kids and my coach.

I teach kids martial arts. I have to be an example of strength and virtue for them.

[hurtinhartford]

Judo,

Athough, the site is dedicated to DB to save the M and we all want to save our M, but realize that we can and must save us. DB'ing and GAL'ing is about making you a stronger, happy and healthier individual so that you are prepared for whatever the outcome of your sitch will take. Please do not put too much faith in friends and family unless they are intimately involved in your M. They only hear one side of the R and in most cases tell you what you want to hear. I am sorry if I sound harsh, but it is reality...they want you to feel better. We on this site don't want to set you up with false hope only to have you get crushed again. We want a stronger, healthier and happier Judo!

[pookie69]

i'm not I'm trying hard not to cry at work. Had to go to bathroom to cry some.

brb

i just want to die.

I want to see my son tomorrow though. We have plans. I have to teach tonight and tomorrow. I love my friends.

Your feelings are all over the place here. It is part of the roller coaster. Hang on it WILL slow down.

It WILL get better fom here. We've all been there.

[hurtinhartford]

Judo,

My youngest son is on the NASKA circuit performing in Extreme Forms. I know it is not traditional martial arts he does that too, but it ammazes me seeing him do all of these flips, twirls and stuff.

[JudoScott]

I know. I feel so weak right now.. if my kids saw me for what I am theyed wonder wtf was wrong with coach. There are so many people who depend on me to set an example even adults that I teach.

Martial arts has been a huge source of support and friends but when I feel like this sometimes I feel like its a burden too.

[hurtinhartford]

The burden you feel is that Judo forces you to be in the public eye so you must show strength and confidence, when you would rather huddle up in the corner and just be alone. Judo more than anything is your best allie at this moment.

[JudoScott]

That stuff is very cool to see. I don't do traditional martial arts either.

I practice Judo and Brazilian Jiu Jitsu which are very different from Karate or anything similar.

[pookie69]

I know. I feel so weak right now.. if my kids saw me for what I am theyed wonder wtf was wrong with coach. There are so many people who depend on me to set an example even adults that I teach.

Martial arts has been a huge source of support and friends but when I feel like this sometimes I feel like its a burden too.

That's positive thinking. I don't know much about recreational martial arts but isn't part of it mental and spiritual strength?

I have only been trained for offencive fighting when I was a lot younger.