Yeah..I really went dark. I knew I couldn't handle all the emotions at the time any other way but to let go of him and the mess 100%. Didn't mean I didn't/don't think about him a little each and everyday (and still do)...but I finally got to the place that I realized I had to hand it over to Him and deal with life as it was/is presently, and let H go on with the life he wanted. With kids (young or adult shared) that can be hard, but I've been real good at not asking for information or not reacting if some small bit of info made it's way to my ears. And for me, that was a major accomplishment! LOL
Now I'm going to tarnish my halo a little. While speaking, I couldn't help but notice that Father Time has been working on XH too.....not just me! Wrinkles, pudginess has not escaped XH, along with a receding hairline. LOL My innerself still sees him as very attractive, but my vain self was tickled to see that no one escapes the consequences of several years without some type of physical change.
So today, I can look in my mirror and say "Not so bad after all, considering....." *snicker*
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
I hope that you are well. You are like a hero to me right now. I hope to be able to handle things as smoothly as you did should things present themselves in your life, in mine ...
Now I've just gotten a mothers day card in the mail. Again, to refresh memories. I've no contact whatsoever in more than 5 years. Almost 3 weeks ago, a short visit in person at work, nothing since then, and now a nice card.
Again, praised the Lord. And again, I'm really smiling. And I'm taking it in stride and only thinking this is really nice of him, and I'm glad I received it. Haven't thought much past that.
Just thought I'd update.
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
Thanks Ever...right back at you!! Did I mention that I think I had a smile (smirk) plastered on my face at work all day? LOL
The card doesn't just (finally) validate me. To me, it also validates the family we were blessed with. And that's the most important thing to me. He's validating 'us'...not as a couple....but as a family. Truly....wowzers!
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
Hi Creed, It is so good to read your post. I have not been on db for so long but it was a pleasant surprise to see that you had posted. You sound good. I am so glad that you got a Mother's Day card. You are wise to take it one day a time. Wow does time fly. I can't believe it has been five years.
It's so nice to see you posting. How have you been? I check into DB quite a bit, but only to read a few short posts..lurking I guess you'd call it. It hurts me so much to see so many new people just starting out on this journey, and all the fresh, painful things they're encountering. It brings back the memories of how it feels in the beginning, and just wish you had the right words to let them know that their lives are not over, and that they can continue to live, learn and in turn help others at some point.
Yes...looking back, those 5 years seem to have flown by. But we both know that surviving day to day seemed to go on for an eternity.
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible
