seeking, I hope you made something good out of your day.
Keep remembering that anything you did or did not do was subject to attack by the mlcer, and things that you had no involvement in became your fault too if that's how they wanted to see it.
I think the mlcer does show very real hate to the LBS, I felt it from my H and saw it in his eyes. IMO it was also a coverup for the guilt feeling of their actions and how it affects the lives of so many.
Keep your chin up.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
It's been a while since I've posted on my own thread.
There is nothing new in my sitch. Still waiting for H's D to proceed. Have heard nothing since my initial visit with my L back in Feb.
I've been having a problem lately in that I'm thinking about H, more than I have in quite a while. Don't know what has prompted it.
I'm fighting it by trying to keep busy with other things but eventually my thoughts keep coming back to it. Don't really understand it as I have done pretty well with detaching.
If others have gone through this can you give me some ideas as to what you did to deal with it? Want to desperately get back to where I was. It was a better place to be.
SA I don't know, but I think when you have been at this a long time and also have had a long marriage, it doesn't just end easily. We move along, and then somehow we move back a bit, usually before moving on again. I think even if our marriages had ended gently and by consent there would be times like this, but as it was we were ripped apart.
It is his journey and yours too. We are are wonderful people but not superheroes!!
I know exactly what you are going through. I can't remember exactly the time, but several months ago I went through the whole 'Why am I feeling this way again about H' thing. I can't say that anything shook me out of it other than time itself.
It sounds to me that either a) H isn't really sure he wants to let you go and/or b) OW isn't pushing, or doesn't have that much influence.
Wish I could be of some help. Limbo Land is a crappy place to spend anytime at all, much less a Holiday. Meanwhile, if you want to have an online pity party, I'm your girl. Sometimes a pity party is just what we need to shake us up. Cry, scream, curse, and get it over with. Catch me here on on email. Either way, I'll be around for you. ((HUGS))
