Oh, Ruby. What a nerve your H had. Yes, at least he said the truth. Ugh! I think you might have strong emotions about this for a while, so let them be. Get a good night's rest, and check in again tomorrow...
Ya, well the continuation was: Him: about? Me: I assumed gf has car, if I am mistaken am terribly sorry and I apologize for jumping to conclusions
Anyway, she did have car to visit family in town about one hour away. He said didn't mean to hurt you but I will not lie ( of course I think, we'll what has changed from a month ago when you were happy to lie? ). He also said that he hoped I found some joy with my children and my friends. This was my reply:
Of course it hurts but I would rather the truth than anything. I am so lucky every single day to have my babies, to be healthy, to be loved. What a gift and I have been blind too too long, focussing on what was wrong and terrible and not going according to my plan. So I gave it up. Sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need.
And that as they say is that. I gave him a very old first edition copy of poetry, rather ragged, didn't cost too much. He said, I love this poet.
Yes, inner Audrey is a good inspiration. I try to think about Grace too. I try to think, how would I like the world to see me? And it certainly isn't as the naggy b!tchy wife that I was for so many years. Would Hot Guy want that woman? I think not!!!
Hot guy definitely does not want Naggy bitchy girl. Find the you you thought you lost. I forgot how cool my girl really was.. It's like being able to rewind with all the knowledge though. I gotta say, I could leave the wrinkles.
I gotta work on finding my Cool Girl. Apparently other people see her (OM2) but I don't think H likes her so much.
When I went to my 20th college reunion in June (where BD happened), I was reminded that she was somewhere inside me... she was pretty fierce and fun. Boy crazy too, I think I gotta work on that with my IC because clearly that's still an issue.
Me54, H53 M 23, T 25 S20, S18 BD: April 2024 Moved out: August 2024
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.
"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page
I'm sorry Ruby. It is strange though, I find my H at times is much more honest now than he ever was. Sometimes now, if he does lie, he ends up telling me. You can do this! Cool girl is just around the corner, waiting for you to find her. Let yourself feel your emotions, it's hard but I believe it heals heal.
M: 29, H: 31 D: 9 S: 8 T: 13 Y M: 9 Y ILYBIDKIILWY 12/09/2012 ~~~~ Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles. ~~~ it Emptys today of its strengths
Thanks all. Cool Girl is definitely in there and emerging more everyday. Got email from H this morning, nothing but housekeeping, although he did say he was skiing on Saturday and Sunday and could take kids both days to hill. Said I was going Saturday, so I would take them and that I would see him there. Wonder if he was thinking of bringing GF this weekend? Hope not, I haven't amassed that much grace lmao!! And very well can't ski on anti anxiety meds...:P
Funny sidebar-I get FB notifications and one was H would like to be friends on FB (I am thinking "again"? What didn't you get about no the first two times?) the request was at 4:40 this morning, but it only showed in email and not on FB. So, he probably was looking to check my FB through a mutual friend or something and clicked the add friend button by mistake lol!! I will keep this one under my hat (my decidedly cool girl hat).
I gotta say how jealous I am of your skiing. I love skiing, but we are 1 1/2 hours away from crap, 2+ hours away from semi decent, and 5 hours away from anything really good. We normally take a trip in March but I doubt it will happen this year.
Me54, H53 M 23, T 25 S20, S18 BD: April 2024 Moved out: August 2024
Love means not giving up on someone even if they've given up on you.
"Being right is the booby prize of life." - Susan Page
We ski every weekend and I do some volunteer work as well.
Haven't heard from H in reply to my email. I know he is with Gf and is probably wondering how he is going to swing telling either her or me about Saturday skiing.
I will need help formulating a reply at this point if he says he was planning on bringing her skiing. I have said that I don't want kids to meet her yet. It's only been three months. Really in truth, I am not ready lol, but also my gut says this is not going to last forever, and I don't want kids to be introduced to whomever is bed partner of the day.
