I did my sky dive today (they had to change my date). It was fun.... not once did I feel fear.... this is from the girl who has allowed fear to run 75% of her life (smh)..... the girl who gets nervous crossing a bridge...the girl whos tempted to grab hold to the passenger beside her on the airplane when there's a slight bump.....she even got teary eyed a few months ago on a slightly high "mountain" trail.......... lol
Total 180...inside and out on this one
Awesome work! Way to do something for you and a good 180! Hope it was a blast and you got pictures or a video of it for posterity
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
I think my next huge goal will be going to another country. That probably won't be for another year or so.
My mom saw my pics online...she was none too pleased w/ me sky diving. She said "I don't know who you are trying to prove something to, but you need to stop doing crazy things right now!"
*sigh* Annoying. I think a lot my "fears" of taking risks in life in general come from having a highly controlled home growing up. I explained to her that I did it for me, it was fun and if I can do that...I can do anything now. I assume she thinks it was for H???
But yes... I felt really happy after I did it. I am excited to move forward and accomplish other smaller goals to get where I am supposed to be in life.
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope
Some moms are like that, Mimi (mine is one of them.) Just love her and remember that if you try to explain yourself to someone, they have a chance to judge you/change your mind. Just listen but don't explain. Continue doing fun things and enjoying life!
Some moms are like that, Mimi (mine is one of them.) Just love her and remember that if you try to explain yourself to someone, they have a chance to judge you/change your mind. Just listen but don't explain. Continue doing fun things and enjoying life!
Hi Tori, I hope you are well Yes, this is exactly why I didn't tell anyone before hand that I was doing it, she would have been negative and caused my to question my self and what I wanted to do for me.
You're right, all I can do is listen.... and then do what I want in the end lol Enjoy your week!
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope
Yes, Mimi. You can respect their opinion but don't have to agree with them. I've been trying some pretty fun, adventurous things too. Life is here for us to enjoy it! ((((((((()))))))))))
Yes life is here for us to enjoy Tori! I'm a little late to the party but at least I am now here
H just texted me a few minutes ago, saying that he's transferring $500 (of his policy money) from the savings to our checking and for me to feel free to use it if I need to...
If I respond, I am going to say I appreciate the offer, but decline using any of it ...again. Or maybe I should just say "ok thanks" and leave it at that...
Although I'd love to use it...to buy some new clothes lol
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope
Thanks Jon. I ended up responding 3 hrs later "ok, thanks" He didn't reply again.
I'm feeling very tired today and a bit emotional...not sure why. I haven't cried in over a month....but today I feel like breaking down. But I won't.....I am trying to keep my mind busy....any down time my mind still goes to my sitch....its annoying. I still think of my highschool boyfriend a few times a year.....so just the thought that H may be stuck in my head the rest of my life is sooo annoying.
I've been so focused in "fixing" in insides I have kind of neglected my outside and gained 10lbs. So I have to get on top of that ans start going to the gym....especially since its getting cold. The last few years...since the 2nd yr of marriage my weight has fluctuated in the winter. 1.5 years ago I gained 30lbs that I an still trying to work off. I never had this problem before...I wonder if its b/c of age....or if its tied to depression. Since it happens during winter I think it may be a season depression if so.
Just rambling/journaling....*sigh*
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope
