The past few days has been the most contact we've had since bomb. She even texted my mom who she was close with but went NC with her since bomb as well. Today I was missing her.
I want to shake her and tell her to wake up! That we can work on things! Of course I wouldn't do that but it crosses my mind.
I was on Facebook this morning and one of WAW's friends tagged her in some photos that showed up right at the top of my newsfeed.
I never go on WAW's profile page so this was the first time I've seen her face in probably 6 weeks. She is really thin but looks beautiful. I've never seen her this thin though.
Boy did that stir up some feelings of longing and sadness for me.
I felt I really made some progress over the weekend, more contact from WAW than ever since bomb. But now I'm feeling down again. I just miss her and wonder how much more holding out for her I can take.
WAW texted me and asked if she could get some of her D things at my house on Sunday. Then she asked if she could call me.
She called and we had R talk. I asked her if this is what she wants. She said no, but she was scared. We then talked about dating each other but not living together and she thought that was a good idea.
She is in the process of moving to her own place (currently living with her mom). She said even though we wouldnt be living together, we could still date and that it didn't mean we weren't together.
She talked about her addiction struggles when we were living together. That she had to put on a strong front because she was struggling and was trying to be a good girlfriend.
Vets, I really need some advice here.
How would it look to be dating again but not living together. In fact, we would be living about 45 minutes apart from each other. Is this even feasible considering everything that's happened?
She is also changing jobs again because she messed up at her new job and her boss went crazy on her.
In all my processing about my own sitch, I've come to the conclusion that the only way we'll be able to come back together again is if we spend some time dating but still living apart. Speaking for myself, I need to take my changes out for a series of test drives and get used to being around him again after surviving the emotional roller coaster before I feel ready to consider living together again.
I think it's outstanding that you got so far! I look forward to hearing what the vets have to say and how your sitch unfolds.
Wows ears! Best to you!!
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
