I know I should have considered myself "dead" months ago, and I always knew our old M was dead one way or the other, but I never really let go so this is cutting so deep. God I can't imagine waking up tomorrow. At least right now I'm tired with a beer (about to be 2) in me, with the hopeful escape of sleep in my near future. Tomorrow morning is going to be the worst case of "tell me that was all just a dream" of my entire life. My best friend for nearly all of my 20's just officially gave up, and I never knew anything was wrong until she was walking out the f'ng door. That is so unfair. Haha life's not fair though, right?
as far as how I handled it tonight, whatever, it could have been better. A little pleading before she dropped the hammer, one or two guilt trips for her afterwards that I will regret but don't yet. No hostility, but I also didn't reassure her fear of things getting nasty between us (they won't, but I just didn't feel like coddling her).
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
Sorry Card. Trust me I feel your pain. Just give yourD all the love you had for the W. I wish I could tell you it gets better, but I'm still stuck myself. But I'll pray for u
M40 XW35 M11 T15 S9 D5 Bomb 6/3/14 Papers del 10/3/14 D final 12/5/14
I wish I could love you and make you believe it 'Cause that's all you ever wanted From me
I slept last night. I don't think it's totally set in yet. I don't think it ever did because I always fiercely held on to hope for a new M. I still know it's theoretically a possibility in the future, but I don't think I want to torture myself with more hope and despair
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
Card29, I'm really sorry for you. What a difficult thing to hear. It's just another step on the path you were already on. Some people have gone through it, others have not. It's now your choice how you approach it. The two choices are very similar: you let go, let her find her way, you detach and drop the rope, and let time do its thing for both of you. Focus on yourself. You'll find the strength.
M39 D6 D3 (at S) S 2014-09 D 2016-09
"You can't start a fire sitting around, crying over a broken heart" - Bruce Springsteen.
I have D2 Christmas Eve and Christmas morning/day. WAW wants me to bring her over to her apt first thing in the morning so we can have Christmas together. She says, "Don't you think she should have Christmas morning with her parents?" No s***, she should. She should for the next 16 years! Those are my thoughts. What should I actually say to that. Why does she say she wants what's best for D2 when she has zero interest in even trying at what is actually best for D2?
Last edited by Card29; 12/11/1403:42 PM.
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
