Little-great to hear that you are on the upswing - sounds like you are anyway. Sometimes just getting through is the best we can do. Great positive thoughts up there - it will get better
Me-45 W-44 S21, S18, D15 T-27, M-21 BD Jan 2014 PA revealed March 2014 In-house separation - April 2015 I filed - Aug 2015 She moved out Oct 2015
I feel like as long as I avoid any mention of BF I'm fine. I don't listen to the radio (too many sappy love songs), I'm blocking all our mutual friends on Facebook for now (too much potential to run into things I really don't want to see -- like those pics last night), I stay out of the town we used to live in (I don't want to run into either he or OW, never mind together).....
For now I'm trying to forget he exists. He's certainly forgotten I exist, so maybe he's on to something.
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
I'm trying like hell to remember that as crappy as my situation is, there's always someone who's got it worse off than I do and all my blessings make me an incredibly rich person. I have my health, an incredible job, reliable transportation, and the freedom ahead of me to make my life whatever I want it to be.
Thanks be to God for everything I have and am forgetting as my misery makes me selfish and forgetful. :P
Boy, don't I understand this. I feel I'm loosing the battle some days. There are certainly people that have it far worse than me.
I wish I could just sit in the room with you for 15 minutes and soak up some of your energy.
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3
AW, that's sweet of you to say. Trust me, I'm not as "together" as I sound. I spent most of last night sobbing over those damned pics. I look extremely tired today and despite passing out cold at like 9:30pm, I feel like I could sleep for a week.
Never have been fond of rollercoasters. :P
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
The fact that you can say that^^^ tells me you are more together than you think.
Me, I fight the urge to drive my truck into a bridge support most every day. Not that I would do something silly like that and leave my kids all alone. Besides, I don't like pain all that much and I just spent waaayyy too much money putting that stupid truck back together. But the feeling is there.
I would be a wreck if I found pictures like that.
Oh, wait. I'm already a wreck, lol.
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3
The fact that you can say that^^^ tells me you are more together than you think.
Me, I fight the urge to drive my truck into a bridge support most every day. Not that I would do something silly like that and leave my kids all alone. Besides, I don't like pain all that much and I just spent waaayyy too much money putting that stupid truck back together. But the feeling is there.
I would be a wreck if I found pictures like that.
Oh, wait. I'm already a wreck, lol.
I definitely know how you feel. There have been days where I wished a hole would open up in the Earth and take me down. I don't call it "suicidal" because I'd never do harm to myself; but if I could be put down like a cat or go to sleep and never wake up, I'd sign up for that in a heartbeat. I've prayed and begged for it.
Believe it or not, it's normal. It's a response to more stress and emotion than you have coping ability at the moment. The trick is to find the coping ability and the methods that make this sort of thing lessen. That's why we come here and read DB books.
This site (and exploring my spirituality in Buddhism) has been so invaluable to me pulling myself out of the hole -- even if it's just to come and vent and sound like an idiot while I work through my chit. LOL
Originally Posted By: u-turn
Little - You are faking together pretty well in my opinion.
Thanks. People at work say so, too. I've been told more than once that I have "no negativity" and I'm so "sassy and bubbly" and while that's certainly true of my core personality, I'm SO FAKING IT these days. LOL
ME: 38 BF: 40 T: 10y, no kids, no M (by choice) BD: 7/14/14, BF admits to PA, wants out, lies about new R. 10/1/14: I move out, BF lies about move in with OW 12/4/14: OW confronted, reveals all the lies
You're at 109 posts. Your thread is going to lock any minute, BTW.
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3
