So this morning she complements me and touches my back while she is getting ready for work, for no reason. She is getting more and more friendly with me. This is very hard because it's very tempting to forget about the recent past and jump back into an R. This must be the limbo phase. Things aren't getting worse but progress is very slow
A couple days ago she was going to go to my IC with me but backed out at tue last minute. My IC is more pro marriage than hers. I just wanted for her to tell IC what was wrong with me and M from her point of view. But she stresses when ever there is a possibility that she will be dealing with her issues.
M 55. W 43 T 12. M 8 1st BD 9\16 W moved out 11\16 Recon moved back 2/17 2nd BD 8/12/18
Today started out good . But know I am feeling down. She hasn't called or texted from work all day. I know its stupid. I just keep thinking I don't enter her mind because she is talking with OM.
I went and looked at a house with my son today. It will be his first. He is very excited. The whole thing made me unbelievably sad when I thought that I might have to move.
She will be home in a little bit time to put my game face on. Then she will go in her BR and I will cry myself to sleep. I hate limbo!!!
M 55. W 43 T 12. M 8 1st BD 9\16 W moved out 11\16 Recon moved back 2/17 2nd BD 8/12/18
Last night she got a text from om and lied about it. I confronted her and asked what was going on. "nothing". I didn't really expect a different answer. I said then show me. She wouldn't until she opened it and it just said goodnight. We gotinto a little argument about how wrong it was. Which was her cue to start getting mean quite and saying "can we have this conversation later". Which we never ever do, never.
This morning I told her I know you expect me to apologise for last night but I'm not. I told her I don't deserve that and I do not want to be with someone that thinks its ok to text OM. Them I left for the gym.
She had IC so I am sure she got an earfull from the therapist. Which would be bad for me because when we went to this same IC 2 years ago all she talked were my problems. Never worked on WW.
Now she is home and taking a nap acting all depressed. I don't know why.
M 55. W 43 T 12. M 8 1st BD 9\16 W moved out 11\16 Recon moved back 2/17 2nd BD 8/12/18
She just toldme she isn't texting him anymore so it muddy the waters. I'm guessing that came from the IC. As usual she refuses to talk about anything. Which is a major problem in our R. And causes me to be very frustrated. Then the conversation is about my anger. I am the bad guy.
M 55. W 43 T 12. M 8 1st BD 9\16 W moved out 11\16 Recon moved back 2/17 2nd BD 8/12/18
Don't believe anything a WW says. Her actions, hiding messages, speak much louder.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019
