Well, she found out about my boundaries yesterday. I came home from work and had a serious conversation with her. She was still kind of sassy with me and then when I told her weekend with her friend will be postponed until acceptable behavior was exhibited she hysterically cried for a good half hour. She hated me for that time, but as much as I hated doing it, I knew it was the right thing. I explained why I did it, and what I need to see from her to earn it back. She carried on with some drama for a while then settled down. She loves again me and has been more respectful and not as argumentative and we shall see how long it lasts. I hated doing it but it had to be done. I refuse to raise a spoiled brat. She can test me all she wants, but my boundaries are much firmer than they ever were. I am going to need to buck up for the ride, the teenage years are emerging.
I went to the gym at 7 last night to decompress a little. I like that class because the owners parents take it and they are like your dream mom and dad. Me and the mom had a nice long talk about weight gain and hormones and pushing through. She wants to take a yoga class with me one Sunday:)
Tonight, date night is taking place at hot yoga, so nice and healthy. I'm going to be as good as I can be until I go away. Today is day 2 of whole30, I am fatigued, but hanging in and cooking some pretty good meals.
I spoke to my manager yesterday and they eliminated her position as of Feb 1st. When I told her about my new position she hugged me and said "thank god, save yourself, I was hoping you were coming to tell me that" We talked for a while about all the underhanded things the new company is doing and she complimented me on my work, thanked me for it, and will have my performance review done which she filled out very nicely so that I get my raise come April.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids
I found out that in March the ex and wifey pants are going to Italy for 2 weeks! Lucky them! How does that impact my life you ask? I get their dog on top of mine for 2 weeks, not to mention my precious daughter. (of course, the kid is not problem, although I am going to ask grandma to watch her for a night or 2). I guess the good news is, I have more bargaining power with him with my dog. And I am having him take one of my satruday nights because I have plans. he didn't complain, lol. I also said I would like some fine Italian leather as a souvenier.
I was sad, M and I were supposed to go to yoga last night, but he got home from work really late and was burnt out. I offered to just come by and hang out, but he said he was totally burnt and he was going to bed and he was sorry he s*cks. I said you do not suck, take care of yourself and get some sleep. he said "thank you or being so awesome and understanding"
It might have been a good thing because I was zapped of all energy yesterday. I barely got off the couch. I was starving, so I made dinner and my diet is very limited so I had to cook and I wasn't going to snack, so I didn't eat much. I felt "skinny" this morning so I hopped on the scale and I lost 5lbs! Probably water weight, but water weight I couldn't shed anyways. I thought I wouldn't be able to this, but to my surprise, I am totally into it and totally strict about it. It's a lot of cooking, and kind of expensive, but hey. It's for my health. I didn't think I would stick to this and I kind of jumped on the band wagon, but I am really serious about it now. Maybe It's about the challenge portion? today is day 4, but I haven't had any alcohol since last Friday. While being snowed in, I think I am going to try some interesting compliant recipes. Make it kind of exciting. But I think I was so sluggish because I am detoxing. Supposedly it happens. Feeling better today, will go to the gym tonight, and I did my 100 ab exercises and 1 min plank this morning. I got this!
No drinks since last Friday??????? I think I would be breaking out in a cold sweat................
Oh, I am a little twitchy for sure. I did find out that if you do NEED a drink, Tito's is compliant. I can hold out until I am snowed in this weekend. We shall see. Almond butter is my new drug of choice.
So, I have been kicking Whole 30's butt, which I am very surprised at. I feel really good too. I have much more energy. I went to a Cycling class yesterday and the last time I was 4th to last. My usual is smack in the middle of the class. Yesterday, I was smack in the middle of the class! My workouts are much better. My aches and pains are actually much better too, believe it or not. I began watching a series on the Paleo diet, which this essentially is. Paleo is a lifestyle, Whole30 is meant for the short term to break you of bad habits and see if you are sensitive to certain foods. You can add back in natural sweeteners on Paleo. In this series it shows you how food is medicine. It is really interesting. And they make some amazing looking dishes. I have actually been cooking every meal and having fun with it. I made a delicious sweet potato shepards pie. I can't get enough of it.
D11 and I had a nice weekend. We both passed out on the couch watching "say yes to the dress" Friday night. Satruday we went to the mall and Trader Joes, then after dinner we played some board and card games waiting for the snowpocalypse that never came. It is frigid here now with below zero temps. But no snow. She is off with the ex today for the holiday.
M came over last night after dropping off his son and we just hung out watching some snowboarding videos and looking at pics from the weekend with his son. They always do a bunch of fun stuff.
His son's birthday is in February. We were looking at his calendar and there was a birthday party for his son on the Saturday before and he asked if me and Gabby would like to come because he thought it would be a good way for everyone to meet. I of course said sure. It will be 5 and a half months. Which is reasonable. And it at a bounce house place, where some cousins D11's age will be also, and a very no pressure event with so many people around. I think this was Juju's idea, and it seems the way it's going to work. I'm excited and nervous for it.
he must be thinking of me kind of seriously, I think. Again,we don't R talk, we act, and we go with the flow. It seems to be working itself out. This Friday we leave on our first getaway together. I am so excited. We are not a social media couple, but I think there might actually be pictures of us together this weekend.
Last night M came over to make sure I had everything I need for this weekend. I had no idea how much stuff you need for snowboarding. I got the jacket on ebay and a pair of pants on Ebay which were clearly mislabeled because I couldn't breath in them. We decided to go to ski barn and get me some warm special socks because warm feet are the key. Then we went back to his house and got together everything I need. He had a pair of pants for me.... Mind you he is 6'2 but he is thin. So A pair of old pants worked with a belt and hiking them up to my boobs. He gave me gloves, goggles a head/face warmer, and I am all set. He taught me out how the mechanics of the board and how to put your boots n the bindings, ect. He is a very good teacher. When my ex took me skiing he threw me on the slope and said "just do it" We then went out for dinner and a drink and planned everything out. I had a compliant salad and a tito's and soda and skipped out on the beer. Yay me!
In the AM he will drop me off at snowboard school and get his lift ticket, then we will meet up for lunch then he will take me on the mountain for a little while. We have our après ski drink spot set where they have this huge scorpion bowl of whatever the heck liquor which we will share. Then we will go shower, dress and we chose are dinner place which is his favorite he has been too. Then we chose our night spot where there will be a 90's coverband (we are children of the 90's). We are both very excited.
My little a hole of a dog last night decided to chew my $230 purse that I splurged on (I NEVER spend that much, but it was half off) I am so upset. Can't wait for the ex to come get him tomorrow.
Work is the most hostile environment ever. This next week can't come fast enough. People are congratulating me and saying they are sad to see me go, but some seem almost resentful I found something and they haven't yet. Tensions are running high.
Tonight I am going to finish packing. It's been a nice week to see M sunday night, Wednesday, then the whole weekend. it rarely happens for us. The more time I spend with him, the more and more I want to be with him. I am so fortunate to have found him. We tell eachother that often. We both feel blessed.
