I'm gonna challenge you to something. Get off this board for 24 hours this weekend. Go do something else. Anything else. Don't come here, don't read, don't post. Leave your phone at home. Take a break. I'm not being rude or trying to send you away; it really helps to do something else and get your mind off this for a bit. I do it regularly, check out for a few days or even a week; it helps me to think about things other than my situation.
You are just spinning like crazy. Its not healthy; take a break brother. Rome wasn't built in a day, your M wasn't screwed up in a day, and you aren't going to fix it in a day. Or in a single conversation, interaction, or otherwise.
What is something that YOU like to do? Not what you think she wants you to do; what do YOU like to do?
oz - listen to LB55. I can tell you are an obsessive ruminator, just like me. Get off the forum for a day. Too much time on the board can feed the tendency to ruminate and obsess which is the opposite of DB.
Side note I owned financial talk. Assertive but not controlling very alpha but still listened to W suggestions high is a 180 for me. When she brought up suggestions. I validated. ( hmmm I see where your coming from)
She made a vague reference to future and it sounded like we were together. But I tried not to read too much into it
