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[Josh71]

You have us here ozman. I'm watching the sun rise alone on a beach. Reading these forums. Contemplating. Alone. But not alone. People to chat too. People here. These forums have done as much for me in one month as a year of IC. Take advantage of the wise people here.

[neffer]

See man. You are not alone. And you can cry with us.

[TBSakaJ9]

What you are going through is pretty normal. I cried all the time at work, on my way home, to my mom, to the board, or was freaking brutal. Just know the pain is temporary.

[LB55]

I’m sitting here under a case ih. Combine. Trying to put the transmission I rebuilt for it back in. I’m sitting under here silently sobbing with wrenches in my lap hoping nobody sees me. I just wish I had somebody to talk to

Rebuilding a transmission is no joke! That's a skill oz! A lot of people in the world wouldnt' have a clue where to start.

So youre crying under a combine because its a rough day. Are you going to hide forever or just let it out and move forward?

We are all here to talk with oz. You aren't alone.

[ozman]

I hate my mom. You guys are all I got. This is the lowest I’ve felt since bd. I’m crashing right now. It’s hard to even type

[luckeee]

Does your job offer EAP (Employee Assistance Program.) If so, you may be entitled to some free counseling sessions. Alternatively many counselors work on a sliding scale of what you can afford to pay. Some insurance covers counseling too with low co-pays (Mine is only $10 now and previously it was $25).

You may want to visit your primary care physician for some anxiety medication to dull things for a little while. That has helped me and many here on the forum.

Last year I was so anxious and upset that I couldn't focus at work and really struggled. I actually applied for intermittent FMLA to allow time to go to counseling appts so my job was protected.

Keeping busy helps to distract. Have you ever looked up meetup groups for your area? They are not dating oriented but activity oriented and there are all kinds of groups for various interests. You should check into that. It doesn't sound like you have a strong network of friends so maybe that is where you need to focus your efforts first. Maybe pick up an activity you have enjoyed in the past or try something new.

[Josh71]

My parents emotionally neglected me which meant I didn't have good relationship skills. I messed up one marraige, picked an aweful gf, and about to mess up my second. Yeah, I hate my Mom and Dad too. I moved half way around the world because of them. I totally get it.

[ozman]

I’m crying under a combine because I’m pretty sure I know what’s gonna go down tomorrow night. And this is the lowest I’ve been since Bd. I had my hopes all up. But I get it now. She’s done. And I’m left with the pieces. It’s just all hitting me. And I just feel overwhelmed with sorrow this is the longest a spell has lasted. Damn. I just want it to stop

[Ready2Change]

I don’t have any

It is important for you make a plan and then follow your plan.

What would you like to do?

[LB55]

Im crying under a combine because Im pretty sure I know whats gonna go down tomorrow night.

It is tough oz, we are here for support. You're crying because you're pretty sure that you are going to go out and have a good time tomorrow night? Work on your mindset. Please do something for yourself brother.

My W has been in Africa on some boondoggle for 'business' with her 'business partner' and 'her bodyguard' for 10 days now. She comes back today. You know what I am doing? Going to a baseball game. I have had a great 10 days with her gone, me and the kids hanging out at the lake, cooking dinner, rocking out with Johnny Cash. She will probably text me to tell me how awesome her trip was and blah blah blah. I'm gonna go ride my motorcycle tomorrow. Then I am going to clean the boat up and get ready for salmon fishing.

She goes to this wedding tomorrow, you go do something that doesn't involve going to spy on her.