I'm not disagreeing with you LH, I get what you are saying.
When you have been with someone for 10 years plus (like most here have) and you are rejected by that person and desperately want to save your MR, the thought of letting go and eventually not missing them is scary. The rose tinted glasses are on and this person seems like the most perfect person you have met and that you will never find someone else. The thought that one day you won't care whether they are in your life is hard to come to grips with after all you have been through with them, even though this is exactly what is necessary.
I felt this way, I am guessing others have too. Probably in the last week or so this fear has disappeared, I accepted that in the future the WS will be just my child's parent and nothing more. Its very liberating.
Me: 41 W:42 T: 14 M: 11 S: 6
"What happened happened, and couldn't have happened any other way...because it didn't"
I understand Bent but the longer you stay there the longer you will stay stuck. This isn’t a phase she’s going through this is who she has become. Do yourself a favor and believe her.
I’m definitely not afraid of no longer missing her. It feels more like the opposite; I wish i didn’t miss her. I wish I didn’t have the feelings. Today was another small step though; I went to church with the kids and she sat with us. At the sign of peace I reached to shake her hand and she gave me a cross look, I was annoyed but whatever.
In the way to our ski hill I felt feelings of anxiety related to the end of the marriage. I also recognized that i probably wouldn’t have been going skiing with the kids today if she was around. I took the kids skiing and didn’t think too much about her at all. Just enjoyed time with the kids.
My daughter needed to get some stuff at her house and I walked her to the door but stayed outside. My STBXW said I could come in instead of standing in the cold. We talked a little about the kids and then I left. I didn’t really have any sad or anxious or bad feelings when I left, which was good. The kids are doing well and seem happy. I would still like to reconcile but it’s not on me and it won’t be soon so I’ll just keep GALing.
Tomorrow I have a call with my DB coach which will be interesting. I’m curious as to what that conversation will look like at this time.
We are planning to celebrate Christmas together but she never answered any of the questions I had asked about what it would look like or where she would sleep - and as Steve pointed out it was funny that she didn’t answer those questions in the same email that she said we needed to communicate better. Whatever.
So Scotty B you guys see each other more then some married couples. It’s going to be really hard for her to miss you when you guys are in constant contact.
I went to church with the kids and she sat with us. At the sign of peace I reached to shake her hand and she gave me a cross look
Always interesting...I remember the same thing from my X. Hopefully your W is not following in my X's footsteps...I think she broke most of the sacraments multiple times,,,,then claims she is catholic.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
I think she broke most of the sacraments multiple times,,,,then claims she is catholic.
So easy for a WAS to spin things to justify them. It might go something like this- "God wants me to be happy and he knows how unhappy I am in this marriage, and how a fling with someone new will make me happy again, therefore God approves of me having an affair." I mean after all, it's all the LBS's fault the WAS needs this fling so badly. If God wants to blame someone...
I'm sure one of you guys will recall, was it in one of Michele's books or someone else's that gets into the WAS's "rationalization hamster"? That little sucker's legs go a million miles an hour non stop.
