Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Rock, bttrfly, job, I was in bed by 10:30 pm last night. Lol.
I did get to usher in the New Year (as well as a bathroom break ) when the kids texted me at midnight. I wished them New Years as well, and was back asleep by probably 12:04 am. Haha.
Today, I’ve got diner plans with my Mom and Dad. I’m picking Dad up from the care home at 3:00 pm and the three of us are having roast diner at Mom’s. She wanted to cook and host, which doesn’t happen often when there are nine of us showing up. My house is the one that can handle such a crowd. I’m definitely down with enjoying her home cooking.
An afternoon/evening of cards and visiting, and a good meal. Awesome day!
D
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
It is pretty nice to wake up with no lingering after-effects from a night of wine.
The New Year’s supper was good. The three of us played cards and visited. I took Dad back to the care home rather late, around 9:30 pm. We took a drive through town and looked at the Christmas lights too.
Yesterday, I packed away the Christmas ornaments from the living room. Might tackle the tree today, or tomorrow. Then back to renovating the living room.
D
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
Fear is a prison, constructed within your mind. It is dark, and the layout is unknown.
You are face down on the hard floor, alone, knees pulled up to the chest, eyes closed tight, and keeping still. There are things wandering about within the darkness. You peek and see a demonic shape, and slam your eyes closed again, attempting to calm your breathing.
In time you have moved about this dark prison and have a rough idea of its shape, may even have found a door.
You hear voices of encouragement, people who care, in real life, here on this board, me.
Eventually you open your eyes, lift your head, and peer about. There is slight glow, ever so little, pushing back the darkness that surrounds you.
Unfolding you arms you sit up to your knees and look about. The glow is now brighter, it is coming from you. Much more of your room is bathed in light. You see these demonic shapes, these fears, and the walls that contain. The light is that of logic and reason.
You start to look at this prison through logic and reason. It is now different; the demons do not move as fast, the walls are somehow less. The same process as for detachment, looking accurately, you are rationalizing your fear, uncoupling your emotions from the possible event.
You rise, stand to full height. Your light is bright, very little darkness survives. You walk within these containing walls and begin to understand.
What is this? A second light has started to glow.
The first light emanated from your mind, your reason. This second light comes from your heart. Compassion springs forth.
The two lights grow in brilliance. Understanding and compassion growing and taking hold. Nothing remains in darkness. All recesses are bathed in a bright glow of both reason and compassion. Both bring different understandings. Those dark swift shapes are not demons, just concerns. The walls are not as scary and large as once seen.
The fears are now understood, reasoned, for what they truly are, the irrational obsessions of possible future events.
The cause of the fears are understood, and your emotional response to fear is abated.
Letting go of fear bring so much peace and strength. You know you will be alright. You feel it.
The path you choose, loving detachment, now enfolds - compassion, empathy, and understanding flourish.
Logic and reason bring understanding and acceptance.
Understanding, acceptance, compassion, and empathy, brings forgiveness.
Now, something truly miraculous occurs. You find two keys within yourself.
You are both prisoner and jailer within these self built walls.
The keys are forgiveness, and your release.
The first, forgiving yourself, removes the door.
The second, forgiving your spouse (and others), removes the prison.
You are released.
Freedom is truly found.
- - - -
You are face down on the hard floor, alone, knees pulled up to the chest, eyes closed tight, and keeping still.
You are reading, and not alone. I know the prison you are in.
You feel a hand on your back and under your elbow. I am there, knelt down right beside you, encouraging you to lift your head.
Fear is a prison and the keys to your freedom are within you.
Let your light shine.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
) when the kids texted me at midnight. I wished them New Years as well, and was back asleep by probably 12:04 am. Haha.
