It’s a daily grind still for me that’s for sure! And this is a disciplined life that I accept and embrace. I get up early and get out to exercise and either get into my garden (usually) or nature. Taking care of my home and working on my return to work. I have been continuing to GAL outside of my family and also having a lot of joy within our family (without W).
I will have therapy today and I’m looking forward to making more forward momentum. I want to push back against feelings of limbo and being stuck. This takes courage and honesty.
So far my plans for the weekend coming up:
Sporting event Friday night followed by dancing. Hike and kayak Saturday and help my parents at their place. Party Saturday night. Church Sunday then beach and chill out.
Maybe a better way to state this: Lots of joy with my parents/children/grandchildren or..... S34 and his wife ect... helps reduce the confusion when you are more specific.
Same thing with joy? What brought you joy? Finger painting with 3yo grand daughter...ect
Example from my life: I will be visiting D21 and her boyfriend next weekend. Her mother spent last weekend with her.
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712
A good points. Make believe, songs and stories with granddaughter. Relating on a whole new level with eldest D. Laughter, games, music and good food with other kids altogether. And then sports, talks and walks with my dad. And music and hugs with my mom.
Out at the park last night with S21 and my parents on a beautiful evening to watch S25’s baseball game. S got the win pitching 4 strong innings in relief and his friend from high school walked it off with a home run in extra innings. Walking to the car with S21 after, I thought to myself, “I’m happy.”
Weekend is off to a great start. Danced the night away. Still very much a beginner. But I’m told dancing is great for the brain and it sure is a blast being around fun friendly people.
