I think it is a good possibility your H was trying to tell you something. I mean can you imagine having to try to sit down and have that conversation if you were in the WAS shoes? Easier for them to look for more indirect ways to get the message across. Just my guess.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
Quote: a guy who WASN'T turning back to his wife would have shut that song off in a HEARTBEAT!!!
well, Ellie, you put my meandering thoughts into concise words! Lord knows, I've heard him take songs off in a heartbeat before...especially the one by Bob Seger that goes "trying to live my live without you babe, is the hardest thing I'll ever do"...way back last spring in the midst of one of their "breakups"...H flat out said "I don't like that one" and hit the remote. Guess I shouldnt have danced to it, huh
Anyway, the more I think about it the more I think H was trying to tell me something. it's also dawned on me that some of the phrases in the songs have come out in things he's said before...
Besides, H is a Master of the Mind Game...he would be acutely aware of messages he's sending. hmmmm, I don't think it was an accident.
i'm a little anxious...Friday AM I have to have surgery for this sinus infection that I've had for months, maybe even years. I had a ct scan last week, and it turns out part of what they've thought was an infection on xrays is a tumor or cyst that shows up on a ct scan I had done in ----get this----1993. I am rather irritated that the specialist who ordered the ct scan back then didnt follow up on it. I never heard one single word. I remember wondering about it, but I figured if they didnt call you, results were normal. I should have followed up, but S was a baby and I was busy so dismissed it. sheesh. That specialist no longer practices here, I wonder why? Current specialist believes it is not malignant as there is not evidence of bone erosion on the current ct scan, but it still makes me a little anxious. However, I vary between thinking i am one tough cookie to have lived with this for so long, and being irritated that it didnt get taken care of sooner, and looking forward to not having the constant head aches and ear aches and even tooth aches on that side of my head, and then worrying about "how bad will it hurt"
Hmmmm, Ellie, what is your take on it, is this a real painful thing post op? it's a "bilateral nasal endoscopy w/sinus surgery as indicated & possible septoplasty". It's anticipated to only take an hour.
maybe I'll really be hot if I can get rid of this constant darn infection.
ohhhhh, eeeeeeh, when they go for the jugular, I about pass out...I've even asked the vet in a squeaky voice "is that the jugular" and he answers real unsure like he's afraid he'll have to take care of me "uh, yeah".
actually though, I've done subq antibiotics and vacinations, the vet showed me how years ago when our old collie was sick, and that doesnt bother me, I guess because I shouldnt be hitting anything serious, there's not much blood, it doesnt seem to bother them much, and I've had to give them to myself years ago. but mix a little blood and a little pain in, and I'm a goner.
