You do not need to make a firm decision about the future. Looks like you are trying to decide black or white.
It’s ok, and possible, to love someone and yet not like them. If/when STBXW brings up future friendship say/think along the lines of:
My friends don’t treat me this way.
It answers the present moment of friendship with how she is currently behaving. And informs her (and you) of your boundary on such disrespectful behaviour.
Yes, the door is therefore open a crack. You might close it later. Or you might not. Leave the future to unveil itself as it will. Deal with the present moments.
